A New Year

Readers!   A new year has arrived.

it means another year passed.

as we're all sleep-deprived

too tired to be surprise.

but rise and shine my dears!

it is time to show

another new part of u that we gained through the previous year.

 another ability that u earn

the knowledge that u once again learnt.  

a new skill u mastered. 

and will make it better.

a new year.

does it mean new shoes? new clothing?

new computer? new pencil boxes or new bags?

new set of uniforms.

new boyfrens.

new environment?

for me.

it is a new chapter of life.

cos my life will have a drastic change. 

and so will i.

there are things in life.

that takes forever to build.

and a second to devour everything into dust.

and disappear into the air.

leaving back nothing. no trace. or anything.

if there's a trace. it'd be even worse.


a serious concussion leading to a lost of memory.


a trust buildt with patience and care.


a reputation. protected with our ability.



these things. once planned skillfully. it'll last.

one mistake. can bring the whole building down.


and. nobody will no longer trust u. ur reputation will be gone. ur memory is forever lost but at the back of ur head.



i believed that u're strong enough. to withstand the need.

if u aren't u would just seek frmo someone else.


but.

u

are sooooo





daring.




to ask it from me.



if it wasn't u.




ur face will be punctured by my fist with rings.






just becos i'm nice to u.

doesnt mean it's not wrong.



repent.




LORD, lead me the right way. becos of him. i said no. cos i know. he loves me mroe than u do!


such shame you've blanket urself over.


blinded by lust.


i am. disgusted.

to u.

u called. and asked.

u should be ashamed of urself.

although i didnt slap u or kick u in the ---

u should be.

i'm disappointed.

for the first time.
i am sooooo ashamed of u.

how can u do this?

seriously?

u've changed my dear.. too much..

u've crossed the line.


i am not a cheap bitch that gives whatever u wan.

i have dignity.

it's something that u definitely dont.

u definitely. degraded urself. from the request or favor that u asked.

i am.



disappointed.

badly.

My bad morning

A morning i wake, with heavy eye lids and teary eyes. Listening to the fan's rythm and my sister's giggle. I listened harder.  The television definitely wasn't on, perhaps she was on the phone i thought, or maybe she's just being crazy. Laughing out the stress that she buries and shut the door at. 

I opened my eyes, and looked for her. Perhaps this is a dream. She stood there hugging her stomach, hunching her back and laughing. Her face was bright red and because of her vigorous laughing, i blinked my eyes a few more times. I swear, i saw something transparent and slimy stuff at the corner of her mouth. 

She took a deep breathe, and exhaled bit by bit. Magnificiently, she managed to hold her laughter, which i thought that was definitely possible. I doubt that she can last for long holding back.

She clasp her mouth with her hand, and with the other she was pointing at my bed. I estimated somewhere near my pillow. She remain at her position and pointed even harder. 

'LOOK, LOOK!' She said.

With no hesitation i turned my head to my left and saw there was something green beside my phone. NO. PLS DUN TELL ME IT'S NOT A WORM.

but there's no way cos i closed the windows no bugs could have came in i thought.

I let out a soft yelped, got up on one elbow, taking away the blanket that was there near it. I took a very very close look at it. It didnt look like a worm to me, i was still horrified. I am not good at all with insects. I totally agree to Jack and Micheal that insects are made to scare humans.  I braced myself, and swept the 'bug/worm' away with the back of my hand. 

A sense of relieved broke into the atmosphere. My sister started laughing again. 'YER! That was disgusting! How can u do that?! Dewey is there la! It went inside Dewey's fur stupid!' Then she took a step closer but still far away from me.

No! not dewey.. if it goes inside it's BIG trouble. Nobody will dare to take it away. 

I hopped up and searched for Dewey, in a sitting position, pushed my

blanket to my heel and bowed down to the side of my bed and found Dewey sleeping

soundly beside my bed, leaning to the drawers, so peaceful, so cute.

No! That's not why i got up. Turning back to what i was about to do, my eyes

scorched over the floor around Dewey, nothing. Nothing was there. So i panicked.

Eunice then started again. ' There's one on your pillow and a lot in your hair!!'

THIS IS THE LIVING HELL. THE LIVING NIGHTMARE. worms in my hair is definitely

something i want to avoid with my life. I was so scared, i wanted to cry >.<

She started laughing even harder. At that point, i had not doubt whether she

was really afraid or playing a prank at me, because we all have the same genes. When

it's painful scary or anything we'll start laughing to cover our real emotions. I DIDN'T

DOUBT HER FOR HER REACTIONS.

Now she's beside my bed, I grabbed her hand with a lot of force and forced her

limp finger to touch it. The moment she touched it she screamed,

in excitement =.=

Shit. it was a prank. 

then i asked. what is it la! freaked me out!

'Jane' she continued laughing. 'HAVE YOU EVER SEEN A GREEN WORM SO THIN

NOT WIGGLY AND SO STILL? IT WAS BASICALLY STAGNANT!'

i kept quiet. she continued laughing.

I threw one of the seeds of lian zi at her on my bed, at her. she screamed at ran away.

then i started laughing.

She said there wasnt any in my hair. She put it one beside my pillow which is beside my phone,

and the other one next to my face. She said i almost ate it when i yawned.

She stood far from me and started calling my name. and then i woke up.

I GOT TRICKED AGAIN!

i am a spoilt brat.

i do without thinking

i am so self centered.

all the time.

onli bout me.

i've never cared bout other's feelings.

never given concern or care.

always about me myself and i.

being dumb and stupid.

immature and selfish. 

i am so sorriee.. 

but yesterday nite was great. u're still the best.

i do not agree to one man show. cos it hurts. badly.

Dinner at umai-ya DU.

when we were seated.
the setting was cool.
i like the cups
after we were done

their edamame has salt and butter.
the well eaten up soba
my sister find this artistic
i find this boring
we find this disgusting
and their green tea ice cream for dessert is scrumptuos. yummy. the brown this is red bean
from the outside. where we put our shoes.

bill was not as high as we expected. dad was lucky cos i ate some maggie b4 i leave.

Ipoh, Perak Tong. and also uhhh biscuit.

this is the entrance of the perak tong. going up the stairs. my bro there. purposely oneee... he was pretending to be a impaired kid. lol.



cement making factorise


i find the name so humorous. lou po beng. beloved biscuit. biskut KEKASIH SAYA.lol.. wah so sweet =.= 

Dewey conducting =]

the details of the trip

okay! this is the detailed part!

so from the whole trip from kl to ipoh my earphones are glued stuck to my ears canals.
and we stop for the restrooms. then after that held my pillow panda boy and tiger tight in my arms and fell asleep. thanks for the seat belt that held me in place and also the mark at my neck. that looks like a scar like i've been sliced there. LOL. so when we reach there. picked my uncle up.

and had lunch.

LUNCH.

gosh.

it was soooooooo crowded. then we finally got a table. and sat down with a total of 5 chairs. at a blink of a second. one chair was missing. cos my dad was off ordering food for us. if we all leave the table will be gone. so my uncle was dam pissed off.. there were 3 diff person came to ask what we'd like to drink. so he was whining there saying. also no chair! why like this one?! uhh my uncle is from ipoh. LOl......


so they girls just walked away.. so when he complained to one auntie. the auntie said. chiu! u come here eat. the chairs and tables have to fight for it one ma! steal one ah. u have to rob chairs one!.. so finally after lunch. mayb becos my hair was curly and i look very auntie like.. and uhhh ya. i didnt put any effort to dress up. cos after the trip is all gonna get mixed up anyway! hmmmph! so expectedly. at the stop everyone was staring at me cos of my look. guess they were thinking. if there's a fashion police in malaysian. definitely i'll be arrested. LOL.

so after lunch. dropped uncle home and went to auntie's house. and here's the introduction of skippy.


SKIPPY

he's a golden retriever.
he's one year plus onli.
he was picked up.
he's active.
he's lovnig
he loves attention.

ways of getting attention:

he will pick up someone's shoe at the door step. keep one at his mouth and walk around in front of the door so that u'll chase after him for the shoe.

and sometimes he'll pick both up. if they're put together.

so skippy has a VERY nice fur coat. it's so golden. ... =.=
he's so sweet.
but sally prefer to use the word to describe that handsome as handsome.
so the whole time when we were playing.


skippy's so handsomeee...

aiks.. skippy is so handsome. i wanna get a golden retriever. dun wan a stupid shih tzu (referring to dewey) ouch T.T dewey is awesome.. everytime i pat skippy. his fur will fly all over the place. even if i kick him he wouldnt feel anything. so when he reach out. he's head can reach till my chest @@ gosh. i almost got pushed down!.. i was holding food in my hand.. he almost snatched my precious food from me.

so skippy is cool. but it's name is just purely annoying. sounds so stupid. so i decided to name him drake =D

although when u call him skippy he'll wag his tail but when it comes to drake. he's too proud of the cool name that he have that he will just look at the place that he was looking. ignoring me. =)

i think he liked the name..

after some rest. we took of for a hike in a cave temple first. before going to the grave yard. it was sunny. so the cave temple's name is call perak tong. funny name i tot. so when we were walking up the stair case me and my bro started creating weird names and teasing about perak tong's name.

we were truly impressed by the paintings and carvings so beautifully done. and dogs were all over the place. they're cute. although they're left astray. that's so sad to hear =(

kor climbed up to the top and me and sall was 3/4 way up. it was living hell when we came down. perhaps it was our lack of exercise doing their presentation. or it was us being whiny. but my thighs were shaking and trembling. i knocked my head a lot of times. the steps were slippery small and the stair case was somehow like a spiral staircase. some parts of it. and it was dam steep. i bet hardcore ppl like chon giap will enjoy a lot! LOL. such vibrant youth taking it's place.

a lot of tourists. from china. my bro came down with his face pale. he said he almost got attacked by monkeys. dam if i knew there were monkeys. i would've gone up till the top to touch them! he says there were a lot. sooo near him. he was freaked out. he said they were aggressive. T.T

who cares if they're aggressive i wanna touch my breed. lol. i mean my zodiac.

and then he said luckily u didnt go up! the steps were harder than the ones we had. and the view was sooooo breathtaking. so serene and stench-smelling.


so i asked. what u saw.

kor replied.

cement producing factories.
wood processing factories.
industry areas.

and then he gathered air with a deep breathe. and a deep sigh.


okay so at the grave yard. the grasses were so tall. i folded my pants up. till my thigh. it was shorter than my shorts. but it still reached me. and kor kor justignored them. so when he walked bout he was ouch ouch ouch-ing all the way back to the car. cos he was helping the plants to reproduce LOL. and when he came back. those 'seeds' were all stuck in his pants. and he spent 15 mins pulling them out.

so during dinner. everywhere was crowded. or it was my father that doesnt go to food that's not nice, he'll onli go for reknown places for food. it was CROWDED. throw a baby inside and i'll be stomped to death. so we sat outside. the car park there that they lay their tables out.

the sky was grey okay. dark grey. VERY grey. cos it was 7 something. in another words. dark.

so.

we tot by the time we're done with dinner the rain still wouldnt come.

so we had chinese tea. squids yuck. chicken feet yuck. and other dishes that is edible. and also some otak otak. yee..
sooooooo.... we had chinese tea to wash away the oil in our stomachs. my uncle is a doctor auntie's a nurse. so i did the check up there in his office. and he say he'll call me back. then my auntie dunno anything LOL. funny cos she was doing her facial. scared me a lil with her hair or rolled up and mask over her face.

so when we were eating one big drop of water fell into my auntie's cup. we were like!


!!! such big drop of rain. then after that she say is bird dung. but i dun think so cos there wasn't any wires there. then suddenly my father started shouting!..


oh holy father gave u holy water! u shall drink it and h ave eternal beauty! god rained down his treasure right into ur cup!


then he continued.
dam the bird is accurate. he whispered.

and my auntie just fixed her stare on him.
and we all busted into a laugh. everyone was looking at us. LOL.

so that's dinner.


OH GOD RAINED HOLY WATER INTO UR CUP DRINK IT!.

so kor drived back. we stopped at my fav resting stop. tapah's one. it's big spacious and the toilet is HUMONGUOS. we didnt have to wait. malays flood all over the resting places. i didnt spot any chinese. indians and malays.

reached home quite late. on my monitor then saw a lot ppl left messages for me..

then suddenly someone send me something and i was like @@ omg...


then he say he wan go to sleep. then after that call me and ask if it's okay if he call..

i repeat. if there's someone u NEED to talk to.. when u're in need. dun hesitate to call me. i wanna be there for anyone who needs help. and i'll help in any way i can. so of cos i said yes.

then uhhh we talked.. not long la.. till 1 something. then asked him to go to bed.but dunno did he a not lor. he was tired but his mind was filled with decisions. ask him not to think so much and get some rest first.

i was kinda shock though.

so i listened to the lee hom's interview while i sleep. GOSH. he sleep onli 2 hours=(

i feel so sorrie for him.. he's so dedicated into his work.. T.T

lee hom i love u!!!!...


we attained our objective. to bring sal to grandpa's grave.

and reached home. and let justin learn the way to ipoh and back. reached home. fed dewey and. doze off..

I'M torn apart

i'm so exhausted from the trip yesterday.
kl to ipoh in the morning and ipoh to kl during 10.
it was my bro driving so it took us 2 and a half hours.

if it were my dad. less than 2 hours >.<
but becos it was my bro driving we manage to count sheeps b4 we sleep.
if it were my dad.
the seat belts are compulsory.
and all of us will be gripping our seats tight till our fingers feel numb
and when our nails can be broken carving them into the soft seat.

and his constant belching and release of gas is unbearable too.
so we always make jokes abt it. so if it were my father driving.

it's a NATURAL that the windows of the car goes up and down often.
if not the uninvited gases will be floating in the car.

so he fell asleep. thank goodness. away from the gas. for now.

NO!


he's asleep..

snoring will begin.


FORTUNATELY.
i managed to grab a handsfree cos theres a handsfree stealer existed in our home.
they just keep disappearing!

we reached there. and went to my uncle's house. then to lunch. then after that drop him back home. get flowers for my grandfather. then went to my auntie's house. and SKIPPY a golden retriever. is dam cute. i'll elaborate when my sister is done using the computer.

then after that got some rest. went to the grave. head back to auntie's house played with skippy then to dinner. something really special and GREAT happen during dinner. i laughed my ass off. i swear. LOl.

they didnt know we were recording tsk tsk..

the music and their movement matches amazingly. i was impressed =D

hahaha.. so chi cheng and her roy roy.. and then also saw chee loong but i dun think he recognised me. =]

i scalded my hand when i was making mom's tea. T.T

and the church was fun.

and today's lunch was taste bud-exploding.

and the band was great. woooooooooooot!!..


we started off with another new song.

i have to practice more on the vocals =(

nth to do.

morning wake up .. lmao till afternoon watching anime. then after that. eat d.. continue watching.

let mom found out i use washing machine wash my school shoes. she was raged with fury. and dashed at me with the shoes. when i tried my best to sprint into the kitchen hoping to stop her from discovering what was in the washing machine. she never allowed me to use the washing machine to wash my shoe. have to hand wash. and i heard is pretty clean. and my shoe is very dirty. so i decided to give it a try but got a smack. T.T
this was how it went..

jane! why the clothes inside the washing machine still inside one?! few days d lo!(uhhh the shoe was inside since the day b4 yesterday. i totally forgotten about it)
fungus and molds growing d lo! the clothes will stink..


then the light bulb on my head lit.

oh.. SHIT. my shoes.

mommy! i yelled. and sprinted in the kitchen's balcony.

she was there holding my shoes with her hands and smiled.

and the shoe came flying to my face. i dodged.

and it hit the wall ..


phew..









i tot..




and immediately i somehow 'woke up'.. oh no.. it's not over.

who say u can use washing machine to wash ur shoes one hah?! school shoes use hand wash one ah! u use washing machine wash will spoilt the washing machine know a not?! school shoe more expensive or washing machine more expensive hah?! (i was telling her that if u wash ur shoe occasionally not that frequent it wouldnt be so worn out. so i said no need to wash the shoes. wash twice or thrice per year enough. if u hand wash the shoe will be torn one ma.. )

i used the magic spell..

i smiled.

then she just walked out of the kitchen mumbling.


so after that when i continued with my anime.

oi. bao bei. go bath go clinic. then yum cha with me.

oh.. so i changed. while waiting for her to get ready cam whored a while.

=]


uhhh..
hehee...



michelle gave me the skirt for christmas! but uhh.. mom opened it. and michelle darl warned me not to open it till christmas.. soooo sorri =( forgive me k? i love u! mwahs..



that's all.. waiting for daddy to come for dinner and off we go! to celebrate... tmr's birthday boy's birth!

this is a much better one that michelle's one! and with the latest steps..

bwahahahhaaa... pls.. help urself laughing =)

dun hold back.. but pls dun criticize. =]

thank you so much...

tmr is christmas eve. any plans?

it's a time to be soon to be merry christmas! are u guys ready for it??



there might be a lot of things that u want to keep.

but always keep hatred off your list.
becos it never helps.

OMG!!!

FIRST OF ALL.. U SAID 9 YESTERDAY!
AND SECOND OF ALL U DIDNT SAY BEFORE 12! U DIDNT EVEN MENTION IT!


THIRD OF ALL!
I SAID I NEEDED IT FOR EMERGENCY!

AND WHEN U NEEDED ME I TREAT U NICELY
AND NOW. I NEED BACK WHAT I PROVIDED

YOUR THERE TALKING ABT ME NOT TRUSTING U!

THANKS MAN!

I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE WHEN U NEED ME!



=.=

U SAID BEFORE 9AM!

tagged by yenpeng

Rules:
*1. Those who get tagged must answer the question about themselves.
*2. At the end of the post, tag 10 people except the person who tagged you (tagger).
*3. Continue this game by sending to other people. (refer to rule No. 2)

Time: 4.03am
Name: Jane
Age/Birthday: 16
School: SMK Sultan Abdul Samad, PJ
Elder Sister: Eunice
Younger Sister: Me
Elder Brother: Justin

Younger Brother: Dewey
Favourite Liquids [Drinks]: water. sprite. honey. frappucino cappucino?
Favourite Consumables [Food]:iko biscuit.
Favourite Place To Sleep: mommy's bed.
Flying: Expensive and uhhhh lung-exploding? o.0
Swimming/Diving: love it
How Much Friends In MSN: lazy use my calculator again.
Couple: dun look to see them
Loved Ones: Family
Get Kicked On The Butt? uhhhhh?
Allergic?: perverted man
Gastric?: once in a while seldom do. cos use to it >.<
Whole Fortune?: Empty. gave all to offerings >.<
Age Of Marriage: b4 my white hair comes out
Children Wanted: dun ask me.

Age Of Death: when it's time

Animals In House: lizards.

Longest Fingernail Ever Kept: how should i answer this

Wanted Birthday Present: psp i guess..

Q: In your dream, God tells you you are a billionaire in your dream world and gives you a wish. What would you wish for?
A. Quit joking my lord.


tag:
anyone.

have fun!

i've come to realise that God had plan for me
and that i have to let go off something that is great for now to me
and move forth.

i know that He will have greater plans for me.

i pray now to be good.

i've been reminded today that
when we pray today for a butterfly.

God will give us a worm. a caterpillar.

we will be disappointed of the results. and might even lose faith.

but then. after time passes. we deal with the worm without notice.



*after some time*



it blooms a butterfly.
that time onli u understand. this is the real gift that God gave us.

do not lose faith.
keep hope with you.
have faith.

woooooooooooooott...

I wan this bagg... =( elly's sis bought for her from thailand.. the necklace is the one that i talked about. is the pendant beautiful? four leave clover !    GOOD LUCK OH!

it is now 2 30am. in malaysia.
and here i am.

awake.
eating mamee monster.
starving
and unable to sleep.

i've tried counting sheeps.
thinking of someone.
did meditation.
read till my eyes are sore.
lie down and roll.
listen to music.
empty my mind.

nothing can stop my mind from thinking now.
it hasnt been stopping for a long time.
so i haven been getting much sleep.

my physical body is totally worn out.
my eyes are heavy.
my eye bags are getting obvious.
so as my dark circles.
my waist is expanding in some way.
my hair is dropping. T.T
my precious hair T.T

my skin condition is getting worse.
and i cant think right without rest.

and crunchyroll is pissing me off for not working. darn it.

i restart my computer.
i let it load for half an hour.

and the thing that pissed me off the most is.
since yesterday nite. i was loading my vampire knight guilty ep 11 through out the nite to watch it today. so i off my monitor. came back that time i on my monitor. and everything is cleared. the desktop laughed at me =.= the whole nite.. i knew it's my sister. she always does that.

=.=

uhhhh...! i wanna go to bed.

should i take the pills?
but i dun wan.
i already took panadols today.
my stomach is churning and roaring at the same time
my eyes are dry and heavy.

my body is hunching and tired.
my mind is working and racing.

my heart is missing and wanting.

so i decided. mayb i can think of someway to improvise more of the steps to make it better.

I WANNA SLEEEPPPPP T.T

let me sleep plss.. =( and stupid crunchyroll.. let me in!

can ppl die from sleep-deprivation?

dinner! in indo restaurant.

today went out dinner with family members =] and there all VERY sporting.

for pictures.

contact pictures. especially my bro.

dad was too full to pose. and my lovely mother. =] being lovely

that's my sister in law. posing with the phone. =] and my stupid brother imitating the umm.. girls with those pose. nice try though.

i asked him to pose. and he did THAT pose. 

and i barked out a laughed.

kor. me.

what's wrong?

nothing.

what u mean nothing.

you look extremely dumb and familiar.

you look so alike with my brother. 

=.= looking dumb is the purpose stupid. 

oh. 

take the dam picture will you? 

okay. one . two . three. 

*pause*

pose stupid. 

i'm posing darn it! this is my dam pose!.

eh.. okay.

and so the picture was taken. it took us sometime cos we were arguing >.<

it all felt different at a fraction of a second

when i realise what i just got myself into

i cant pull myself out.

as the mighty span of eternity spread.

everything felt great.

i live in it 

not for long.

some uninvited guest came.

and the probs came back to me.

i'm doomed.

and i'm not gonna bring anyone with me.

soray-wa daray-ni demo okori-eru koto des.

daisuki. haha. dohmo arigatoh goza-i-mashta.

sumimasen. hotto itay-to.

koray-wa ata-rashiku arimasen.

gome. sumimasen deshta.

mohshi-wakay-arimasen.

ren.

misunderstandings

there has been a lot of misunderstandings that i am not single?

everybody? i have an announcement to make..

hell ya i'm still single.

and i like being single.

and i wan to be single.

cos every single

person ilove is single

so now i'll remain single

and my bed is single.

dewey is single.

conclusion : i'm single =]

up for grabs and i'm all ears to listen to your suggestions.

guys courting me doesnt mean i'm not single. just not that long >.<

anyway. a lot ppl tot i'm no longer single.

but 

i AM

tagger: michelle

Rules:
*1. Those who get tagged must answer the question about themselves.
*2. At the end of the post, tag 10 people except the person who tagged you (tagger).
*3. Continue this game by sending to other people. (refer to rule No. 2)



Time: 9.28pm
Name: Jane Phang
Age/Birthday: 11.11.92
School: SMK SAS PJ (transfering soon)
Elder Sister: Eunice
Younger Sister: dun have
Elder Brother: Justin

Younger Brother: None
Favourite Liquids [Drinks]:Yakult, V Soy.
Favourite Consumables [Food]: not oily, low calories. mom's cooking
Favourite Place To Sleep: In my love's arms
Flying: M2? hell ya.
Swimming/Diving: Swimming :D
How Much Friends In MSN:eerr i suck in maths.. 466
Couple: hmmm?
Loved Ones: family and uhh someone.
Get Kicked On The Butt?:touched yes kicked? dun think so.
Allergic?: breaking ups
Gastric?: yes
Whole Fortune?: uhh..
Age Of Marriage: Above 25 below 30
Children Wanted: 2?

Age Of Death: soon
Animals In House: yes . dewey!
 Longest Fingernail Ever Kept: am i suppose to measure it?
Wanted Birthday Present: blessings.


Q: In your dream, God tells you you are a billionaire in your dream world and gives you a wish. What would you wish for?
A. open another much bigger animal shelter and also donate all i have to be a philanthropist. i love the world!


10 people to tag:

uhh.. 

nicholas

billie

joseph

daniel

hun

darl

babe

sugar

precious

treasure

用着快乐的心情

来迎接开朗的你

有了你不需要再哭泣

我可以确定你是我的唯一

渐渐的接触你

慢慢地深动了我的心

终于知道爱的人是你

领悟了爱情

只要你告诉我

你对我有感觉

我会愿意放弃一切

我答应我不会放弃你

在每个夜晚里

都会想着你

你和我分享快乐

并在我的人生里

留下了脚印

你伤透了我的心

因为我看不见你

就凭这一个原因

Lee hom's everything.. NEW song

就算別人都說 我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

妳就是Everything 就這個原因
讓我勇敢面對這個世界

想給妳Everything 只要妳說一聲願意
永遠從此刻算起

妳就是Everything 就如這個原因
我會永遠記住這種感覺

想給妳Everything 只要妳說一聲願意

所有的未來才有意義
妳的愛是我的Everything

what if one day i tell u that i'm bored of u. 

i'm tired of you. 

and i never wan u again.

tat u never can see or touch me again.

truthfully. i just cant wait.

i miss u every single second.

i wan u in my arms. 

i wan u to emerge in the thin air and embrace me

till it threatens to devour me into dust.

i wan you.

i wan you badly.

words cant express how much i need you in my life.

and every second

every word

every message

everything

that you said

strengthens the magnetic force that i have towards you. 

i held on to my spot tight. 

waiting for the time to let go.

if this is a dream.

i wish i'll never wake.

if this is a lie.

i wan you to lie to me forever.

if having wat u're giving me means to lose everything i have

i will. i will give them all

willingly from the bottom of my heart.

all i wan is you. 

and all u wan is me.

u said time doesnt measure but it's the love that matters.

i love you.

deeply.

like i have once before.

or mayb even more.

 

you fill every part of me with ur image.

your words are carved into my heart

and the actions you did are imprinted in my mind.

it was now that i realise. 

that forever is in your eyes.

u make all my problems to go away.

and i wan u to be my everything.

the way you conduct yourself impressed me with very much humour.

my heart is swelling up

as the thoughts of you flow in and never out.

my anger dwindled and eventually came to a stop.

i became determined that i will make it through.

you promised you would be with me, for my another admission.

i warned you before hand. you said that  u will be okay.

you lunged yourself on me 

and laid me down quietly.

sedate me with your eyes so moisture

that my concentration was all on you.

how could i resist?

what should i do to contain myself?

when can i show you how contented i am when i'm with you?

why cant i comprehend the thought that you love.

who captured my fractured heart and bind them back together with patience and love?

you. 

your memories of me are so precise.

so meticulous.

so clear.

it made me confuse and made me think.

how could u have love me so much in such a short time?

and made me love you?

a spell that you cast? spellbind? 

an enchantment? i've been so engrossed by you. 

 

if you are a hallucination.

i'll stay a lunatic forever. 

i will want to be..