=D

today i'm all smiles other than the last 2 periods.

wasnt feeling well laa.. reached school then went into class d.. didnt get to see bby..

first 2 period bm karangan. i think i did okay =] managed to write up to 252 words.

after that it was one period of free period and 2 periods of add maths exam..

wheeee... i'm better this year than last year. atleast i knew how to do some questions.

we were discussing the answer la actually in class LOL. 

everyone get diff answers. 

during recess spent it with baby but he disappeared after that. made me quite angry though.

manage to cover it after chinese class. 

i was walking out to find baby just outside the class and he was walking towards the class d..

hahaha.. 

not funny.

so we stayed till 4 37pm. mom say she'll come at 4pm. I totally forgotten bout the time man! 

hahaha we were having such a fun time... my eyes, jaw, throat, face and head hurt. then everytime i laugh my jaw hurt even more. 

and baby just keep making me laugh!

and sometimes we laugh for no reasons.

so i told bby. u know everytime when u hug me i'd automatically stop laughing.

and IT WORKS!.

TA- DA!

so everytime when i started laughing i'd hold my jaw then baby will hug me.. then i'd stop..

cos.. i was actually enjoying the moment. i just dun feel like laughing anymore everytime he hug me.

i just wanna remember this feeling. so warm, so secured, this feeling that i haven had in such a long time.. so i held on to it. and stopped laughing. 

for that moment. i put everything down. and just wanted to be with bby.

baby found a new thing to make me happy. with his phone. LOL

i love u baby! see ya tmr!

Thinking of You

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

Hallelujah!

TODAY God my Lord, gave me the enchanting ability of sneezing! wooot!

so i sneezed and sneezed.. and sneezed..

and sneezed.

and sneezed.

janE =]                 cos i'm not your princess            says:

u know me one laa..

          janE =]                 cos i'm not your princess            says:

normally i wan my bf

          janE =]                 cos i'm not your princess            says:

like

          janE =]                 cos i'm not your princess            says:

spend as much time with me as possible

кΐŧ zåί # says:

haha

кΐŧ zåί # says:

tell him dat la

          janE =]                 cos i'm not your princess            says:

i'm afraid

          janE =]                 cos i'm not your princess            says:

if i ask him to alter his life

          janE =]                 cos i'm not your princess            says:

for me

          janE =]                 cos i'm not your princess            says:

he'd rather leave me.

кΐŧ zåί # says:

lol

кΐŧ zåί # says:

den wat for

кΐŧ zåί # says:

if he dun even wana change dat little bit for u

кΐŧ zåί # says:

not a good guy

the conversation i had with him.. 

i dunno..

in relationships i haven held back for such a long time. 

and now i'm struggling and covering it up

afraid that he'll find out.

i'm scared. help me.

pic day!!

sal's birthday cake

that costs RM 138

nicholass gimme one. it's cute. made from plasters

ya love ya baby!

A lil Motivation

10% is what happens to you.

and 90% is I handle it. 

To reach the altitude.

I must have the right attitude.

Sucess = 1% inspiration    (encourage)

             = 99% prespiration    (sweat it out man!)

You're never a failure until you quit. 

The safest ship in the storm is leadership. (not frenship)

Sucess is with failure dusted off.

If you think you are a leader and have no followers, you are just taking a walk.

(Read it a few times u'll understand.)

It takes courage to stand up and speak,

it also takes courage to sit down & listen.

We have to live as if this is our last day. 

but plan like we're going to life for 80 years.

Winners are not quitters and 

quitters are not winners.

When you're tired of fighting,

just go one more round.

So baby,

i will make the first step,

instead of regretting when i have to leave,

becos of pride and 

i refuse to take the first moves 

and leaving empty handed.

I'm not going to be a fool 

that waits for someone to initiate.

becos i know. this initiative.

might be my last move.

and i wan my last move.

to touch u.

instead of hurting you.

You said. it'd break your heart to see me hurt.

=]

i love you too.

Do not be afraid to start.

becos after a while.

u will see ppl appearing beside you.

and go through with you.

Those, are the ppl who truly cares about you.

I wonder.. who will be the one beside me, when i start.

Will it be you? the one reading this right now, hand in hand 

with me..

I cant wait =)

White Horse by Taylor Swift

Say your sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to

As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause I honestly believed in you

Holdin' on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,I should've known
I should've known

(Chorus)
That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse
To come around

Maybe I was naive
Got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance
My mistake I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand

I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings,
Now I know

(Chorus)
That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse
To come around

And there you are on your knees
Beggin' for forgivness
Beggin' for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm soo sorry.....

That I'm not your princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually
Treat me well
This is a big world
That was a small town
There in my rear view mirror dissapearin' now
Now it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse
To catch me now.....

Whoa ohhh ohhh ohhh oh
Try and catch me now
Ohhh
It's too late.....

To catch me now.

memories ep 3

We have not met.

but my feelings for u were deep.

u smooth out the wrinkles appearing on my forehead at times.

u made my sour personality cheerful.

u made me smile so often that i no longer feel gloomy

u told me that u love me.

it didnt last even a month.

u broke me off.

u asked bitches to scold me through the phone.

one day i called. u finally picked up the phone and say.

i dun love u anymore. just leave me alone. dun even call or text me again. bye.

i held my phone. looking in the mirror. 

my eyes reddened and my eyes flooded. 

i pour my heart out and let the grieve take it's place

i cried and cried. started of sobbing and continued with heavy breathing.

my asthma hit me. i searched for my pump. 

and grabbed hold of my knife.

ready to cut myself. to show how worthless i am.

i dropped the pen knife. dewey came sitting beside me.

it's not been longer than 1 month. 

but i've come to have good terms with u.

u didnt have anytime with me.

u'd rather game than spend time with me.

u told me u dun deserve me.

i didnt really care.

so i told myself. u dont deserve me. and i should love myself more.

u really broke my heart. and toyed with my feelings. i hope u had fun .

Billie.

dun tell me that u regret what u did.

cos i would never believe it.