Tuesday, June 15
15062010
today is such a tiring day.. but atleast i have a v soy by my side now to cheer me up and do wonders to my mood. Today slept in class, quite rare for me, i normally insisted to stay awake no matter the consequences, when i came back from college, just dropped dead on the bed and slept till 8pm or so. Woke up by my mom's voice ( as usual) talking about her abnormal psychology assignments reading aloud and we would (depend on mood) listen or pretend to listen to her. I practiced her sign language to her, and i'm starting to memorise a lot of it, but of course still a long way to go..
Wednesday, June 9
Darren
have been thinking about him lately, and wonders how is he doing. Looking at the way he lost his dog, i would've gone out of my mind. Then i came to think of how we first saved silly, a cute strayed cat, i called him i found a kitten crying for a long time, we tried to feed it but she wont eat nor drink the milk. Darren kindly took it home even though he had two large dogs at home, chester and rocky. Rocky's the one who passed. He managed to fed silly, he said with a spoon and heated milk, then i was thinking, ' i'm such an idiot, of cos a mother's milk is warm, it is not refrigerated, like duh' then me and sally looked at each other and realise how stupid we were.
Silly didnt live for long, Darren woke up one morning and found that she was hardened and dead, his sister got very upset over it. I also remember there was once when i was feeling extremely done, i walked over to his house during midnight, and sat at the bus stop opposite his house, it was dark, filled with mosquitoes, but there were a few stars, blinking, i called darren and he rushed out immediately, and he held me in his arms, and we both just stared at the sky for sometime. Until i couldn't tolerate with the mosquitoes further.
Sleeping on his bed with his bolster, was heaven, the airconditioner would always be on, the room would always be tidy and clean, unlike mine. We'd watch anime's and series together. He would smell the bed and the pillow after that, and tell me that it smells just like me, as if i was there. His parents were lovely, his father cared a lot for him, and so does his mother. His father is very responsible tho, even tho sometimes he can be a bit angry.
So much about him that i missed out, even though we lost contact, (more like he refuse to talk to me) just wished that one day, we would be able to talk normally again, like we're closed friends, afterall, we've known each other very well. Even up until today.
Silly didnt live for long, Darren woke up one morning and found that she was hardened and dead, his sister got very upset over it. I also remember there was once when i was feeling extremely done, i walked over to his house during midnight, and sat at the bus stop opposite his house, it was dark, filled with mosquitoes, but there were a few stars, blinking, i called darren and he rushed out immediately, and he held me in his arms, and we both just stared at the sky for sometime. Until i couldn't tolerate with the mosquitoes further.
Sleeping on his bed with his bolster, was heaven, the airconditioner would always be on, the room would always be tidy and clean, unlike mine. We'd watch anime's and series together. He would smell the bed and the pillow after that, and tell me that it smells just like me, as if i was there. His parents were lovely, his father cared a lot for him, and so does his mother. His father is very responsible tho, even tho sometimes he can be a bit angry.
So much about him that i missed out, even though we lost contact, (more like he refuse to talk to me) just wished that one day, we would be able to talk normally again, like we're closed friends, afterall, we've known each other very well. Even up until today.
Monday, June 7
Holidays!
coming into the second week of my holiday! still quite shocked about my fren's wedding, i'm feeling sad for her, to be tied down at such a young age. Anyway, holiday has been great, read some books i borrowed from the library!
The previous week wye hong has been really nice to have said yes to me, when i begged him to tutor me maths! He has a lot of patience for me really.
Hoping to watch killers tomoro now that i have a chaffeur, however it is spelled. Good night ppl~
Sorry for the dead blog, i'm more often on facebook =]
The previous week wye hong has been really nice to have said yes to me, when i begged him to tutor me maths! He has a lot of patience for me really.
Hoping to watch killers tomoro now that i have a chaffeur, however it is spelled. Good night ppl~
Sorry for the dead blog, i'm more often on facebook =]
Monday, April 26
sorry!
it has been so so long since i've last updated my blog.. well between me and him it is officially over.
loneliness will take over me again and i'll cry and laugh but my Father will be with be and make sure that i'm never dry =] so many things to get used to!
i cant wait for a change. staying in my comfort zone is just not my thing. i guess it's good that we've both separated. he's happy too..
Wednesday, April 7
Thursday, March 11
aii yooo...!
sorry laaa no one wanna come here and read my blog d.. anyway my bro sent me this super meaningful thing. for the girls!
From an Old Woman to a Young Woman
1. You are not a victim. No matter what happens to you, don't take the pussy route and blame the world for your misfortune. If you were sexually assaulted, verbally abused, etc and lived to tell about it; take your pain and help those who need it. Writing emo poetry isn't going to solve anything.
2. Invest in your education first, your looks second. Anyone can pay a plastic surgeon to look hot, but not everyone can read a book and do simple math.
3. No matter what you call it, having a 'man to take you shopping' is glorified prostitution. He wants you for your body, you want him for his wallet. Cut the crap and call it what it is.
4. Do not seek confidence in other people. Magazines, celebrities and most pop influences are there to make you feel like you're nothing. Don't buy into it. Those celebrities need your money to look fabulous. Invest in yourself, not hype.
5. Stop fueling gossip mongers [Perez Hilton, TMZ.]. They have nothing to talk about and if you follow them for long, neither will you.
6. Be modest; why have all your goods unwrapped and leave nothing for the imagination?
7. Know the difference between fucking and love. There is a major difference and if you don't know it, pick up a book or ask someone who does.
8. Do not have children just because you're lonely or insecure. Your child will end up hating you for it and you won't get the emotional blanket you hoped you'd get.
9. Get a job. Seriously. Just because you're a woman doesn't mean that you are excused from work. Find a trade, get a job. If you are a house wife, be a good one. If you are a career woman, put your heart into what you do.
10. A respectable companion is rarely at a 'bar' or da club'. These places are meat markets and will only set you up for a douchebag or a wimp. If you go, refer to rule 7.
11. Learn to cook. Cooking is a dying skill that needs not be. You'd be surprise how much weight you lose and how you can get a decent companion if you know more than picking up a phone and calling for dinner.
12. Get off your phone. If it's not your best friend, your job or your family, your cackling is not important and the rest of the world does not want to hear it. Listen more. Talk less.
13. Stop putting so much of your money into things [purses, shoes, make up] and start putting it into a savings account, a 401k or an IRA. Those shoes are not going to vest when you turn 65.
14. Stop using men to get you stuff. Have some self respect and buy your own drinks, meals and entertainment. A date will respect you more if you show them you are not helpless.
15. Perfume and baby powder does not make up for good hygiene. Shower, do your laundry, clean your place. Body odor is not excusable for either genders.
16. If you are a Lesbian, respect yourself and stop trying to find acceptance in the world. 9/10 they will not accept you. Tell them 'fuck you' and be your own woman.
17. If you are a Lesbian, you are not anymore special or important than anyone else. You love other women and you have that right, but do not flex your preference thinking it makes you unique. Your mind and experiences make you unique, either gay or straight.
18. Buy clothes that fit. Be tasteful with your clothing be you big or small.
19. Don't eat for comfort, vomit to make yourself beautiful, and starve yourself to feel loved. Exercise, be sensible with your food choices, don't deprive yourself but never eat too much. The quickest way to a size 30, and to the grave, is past your teeth.
20. If they say the love you, ask them to earn your heart through good deeds, genuine kindness and respect.
21. Romance is not dead; but if you're not willing to give it, don't expect it in return.
22. Stop being a bitch to other women and other people. If you are not happy, go get therapy. No one deserves to be berated because you don't have the guts to berate yourself.
23. Do something new every day. Pole dance to learn about your sensuality, paint to express your creativity, write a blog to express your soul. Evolve and never stop learning.
24. Look in the mirror everyday and smile at what you see.
25. Stay safe. Learn to defend yourself against one or multiple attackers. Jackals do not attack if they see a big stick. If all else fails, run. There is no shame in running if it keeps you safe.
26. Love yourself. Always. When you love yourself to the fullest, the world will open with opportunities
2. Invest in your education first, your looks second. Anyone can pay a plastic surgeon to look hot, but not everyone can read a book and do simple math.
3. No matter what you call it, having a 'man to take you shopping' is glorified prostitution. He wants you for your body, you want him for his wallet. Cut the crap and call it what it is.
4. Do not seek confidence in other people. Magazines, celebrities and most pop influences are there to make you feel like you're nothing. Don't buy into it. Those celebrities need your money to look fabulous. Invest in yourself, not hype.
5. Stop fueling gossip mongers [Perez Hilton, TMZ.]. They have nothing to talk about and if you follow them for long, neither will you.
6. Be modest; why have all your goods unwrapped and leave nothing for the imagination?
7. Know the difference between fucking and love. There is a major difference and if you don't know it, pick up a book or ask someone who does.
8. Do not have children just because you're lonely or insecure. Your child will end up hating you for it and you won't get the emotional blanket you hoped you'd get.
9. Get a job. Seriously. Just because you're a woman doesn't mean that you are excused from work. Find a trade, get a job. If you are a house wife, be a good one. If you are a career woman, put your heart into what you do.
10. A respectable companion is rarely at a 'bar' or da club'. These places are meat markets and will only set you up for a douchebag or a wimp. If you go, refer to rule 7.
11. Learn to cook. Cooking is a dying skill that needs not be. You'd be surprise how much weight you lose and how you can get a decent companion if you know more than picking up a phone and calling for dinner.
12. Get off your phone. If it's not your best friend, your job or your family, your cackling is not important and the rest of the world does not want to hear it. Listen more. Talk less.
13. Stop putting so much of your money into things [purses, shoes, make up] and start putting it into a savings account, a 401k or an IRA. Those shoes are not going to vest when you turn 65.
14. Stop using men to get you stuff. Have some self respect and buy your own drinks, meals and entertainment. A date will respect you more if you show them you are not helpless.
15. Perfume and baby powder does not make up for good hygiene. Shower, do your laundry, clean your place. Body odor is not excusable for either genders.
16. If you are a Lesbian, respect yourself and stop trying to find acceptance in the world. 9/10 they will not accept you. Tell them 'fuck you' and be your own woman.
17. If you are a Lesbian, you are not anymore special or important than anyone else. You love other women and you have that right, but do not flex your preference thinking it makes you unique. Your mind and experiences make you unique, either gay or straight.
18. Buy clothes that fit. Be tasteful with your clothing be you big or small.
19. Don't eat for comfort, vomit to make yourself beautiful, and starve yourself to feel loved. Exercise, be sensible with your food choices, don't deprive yourself but never eat too much. The quickest way to a size 30, and to the grave, is past your teeth.
20. If they say the love you, ask them to earn your heart through good deeds, genuine kindness and respect.
21. Romance is not dead; but if you're not willing to give it, don't expect it in return.
22. Stop being a bitch to other women and other people. If you are not happy, go get therapy. No one deserves to be berated because you don't have the guts to berate yourself.
23. Do something new every day. Pole dance to learn about your sensuality, paint to express your creativity, write a blog to express your soul. Evolve and never stop learning.
24. Look in the mirror everyday and smile at what you see.
25. Stay safe. Learn to defend yourself against one or multiple attackers. Jackals do not attack if they see a big stick. If all else fails, run. There is no shame in running if it keeps you safe.
26. Love yourself. Always. When you love yourself to the fullest, the world will open with opportunities
Sunday, February 14
Happy chinese new year ppl!
i know it has been a LONG LONG time since i last updated my blog.. sorry man.. college is sooooooooo dam busy. then i fell extremely sick for a week and almost died.
anyway just to wish everyone a very very happy and prosperous chinese new year!
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