The Lame Excuses

The first lame excuse i'm going to give, for not updating my blog is :

               - i have nothing to write.

               - my mind turns blank when i see the dashboard page.

               - my mind's filled with alan. that whatever i write will relate to him. (the best)

One fine day, Prime Minister Goh Chok Tong visited India
 to meet their PM to negotiate trade terms.
 During the lunch break the Prime Minister of India
 suggested taking PM Goh for a spin in his helicopter
 and view India 's city lifestyle.

 As PM Goh was enjoying the bird's eye view from above,
 he noticed an overpopulated village with unhygienic living
 conditions. A man was even shitting in his backyard.
 PM Goh was fast to comment how unsightly it is and
that India 's people are so uncivilised.

 India 's PM was so humiliated and vowed to himself that
 he'll humiliate PM Goh when he gets to visit
 S'pore.

 When he really did visit S'pore the following month,
 PM Goh too offered him a ride in his helicopter to see
 the Singaporean lifestyle.
 For a whole hour, India 's PM was trying hard to spot a
 fault.
 Finally he saw a place where people literaly littered the
 streets,
 and as he had a closer look, he even noticed a man shitting
 on  the grass verge.
 He quickly pointed out to PM Goh about it and said,
 'You said Singapore was nothing like India .
 How do you account for this?'

 PM Goh looked closer, smiled and replied
 'Aaahhh.. we called that place - Little India'.       

i wasnt looking into ur eyes. 

cos it felt different.

this felt like it was nothing when it use to be something.

i onli had him flooding my mind.

if u think that and that moment. i was yours.

u're wrong.

cos i've never been. the whole time.

i was still thinking of him.

becos i really really really love him. 

i'm sorry.

I Thought You Forgotten

It was around noon, that i realise we were going to step into our second month anniversary. Time passed so fast, i couldnt believe that it's the end of the month again. I keep reminding myself, this time i'm going to make it right. 

i gave all sorts of reasons, to try to stall time till it was 12. so that you know what this means to me. I was bathing, with the message typed, when i was done typing it was 2355. so i continued bathing. suddenly i looked at my phone again, carried away by the warm water, it was 0008.. OOOHHHH GOOSSSSHHH! IM LATEEEEE! I thought, without any further a do. sent the msg. then bby replied. oh shit u beat me. i received the msg at 11 59pm. Thank Goodness my phone's clock was faster. 

A sigh of relief and sent bby back to bed again.

anyway.

Happy 2nd month annivesary sayang!

i love you, a lot.

nice one

Walking down the street, a man hears a voice: "Stop! If you take one more step, a brick will fall down and kill you."

The man stopped; a big brick fell in front of him. The astonished man continued walking to the cross walk.

The voice shouted, "Stop! If you take one more step, a car will run over you and you will die."

The man stood still; a car came careening around the corner, barely missing him.

"Where are you?" the man asked. "Who are you?"

"I am your guardian angel," the voice answered.

"Oh yeah?" the man asked. "Where the hell were you when I got married last week?''

LOL

Two Italian virgins marry and go on their honeymoon. Unfortunately, neither knows what to do when they get there.

The newlyweds call the groom's mother for advice. The mother says that they should sit on the bed together, snuggle, and things should happen from there. The newlyweds do this, but nothing happens.

The groom calls his mother back. She says they should take their clothes off, get under the covers, and nature should take its course. The bride and groom take his mother's advice, but still nothing comes to mind.

He calls his mother a third time. Getting frustrated with the situation, she says, "Listen, just take the biggest thing you have and stick it in her hairiest spot!"

The groom is quiet for a moment and then asks his mother, "I've got my nose in her armpit -- now what?"

A woman meets with her lover, who is also her husband's best friend.

They make love for hours. Afterwards, as they lie in bed, the phone rings. Since it's the woman's house, she picks up the receiver. The best friend listens, only hearing her side of the conversation:

"Hello? Oh, hi... I'm so glad that you called... Really? That's wonderful... Well, I'm happy to hear you're having such a great time... Oh, that sounds terrific... Love you, too. OK. Bye-bye."

She hangs up the telephone and her lover asks, "Who was that?"

"Oh," she replies, "That was my husband telling me about the wonderful time he's having on his fishing trip with you."

Have a laugh.

A funeral service is held for a woman who just passed away. As the pallbearers carry the casket out, they accidentally bump into a wall.

They hear a faint moan. They open the casket and find that the woman is actually alive.

She lives for 10 more years and then dies. They have another funeral for her. At the end of the service, the pallbearers carry out the casket.

As they are walking, the husband cries out, "Watch out for the wall!"

Hun, for you.

every minute every day,

my mind use to be vacant,

like the washroom in the air plane. 

now that u occupied it.

you can just do it ur way.

every call every message ,

smoothens my wrinkled forehead,

just like those anti-aging cream. 

that wipes away ur worries 

abt wrinkled forehead. 

every word, every sentence

u say it with so much love and care.

because of all of them are so heart felt.

reading once was just never enough. 

every touch and every kiss,

brightens my day rapidly,

and it has an aftertaste,

a lil bit of reality

but most of it sweet.

If Pringles resembles pain,

then you would eat them all up for me.

If handphones represents love.

you would have a bunch for me.

If bullshits are like time.

you spend ur whole life time earning money

to buy a bunch of bullshit for me.

If love is like Dewey.

you would name everything around you Dewey,

when i ask u how much do u love me.

and you'd say. look around you. 

ur voice is like the song i play on iTunes.

and the replay button is the only button i seek. 

like the cheese tarts i like to eat.

i miss  u as frequent 

as how often i press the 'lower down the volume' button

on my remote control when my mom turns on the tv. 

i love u as much 

as the amount of words we have in history.

i wish to spend time with you 

like how long i keep my computer on forever.

i wan to be with u 

as long as how long my sister take in the toilet.

i wan u to know that 

my hatred for you, is just as dim as the lights in my living room.

When i'm worried bout u,

my heart is as heavy as my school bag.

mayb a lil bit more. 

when i dun see u,

my anxiety becomes stronger

like the guitar strings that i never manage to fix

or if u prefer. like the internet connection that never seem to operate.

i just love you.  

memories ep 6

When it comes to 'memories', i always leave the dedicating person's name for the last. This time, it's going to be different, becos this special someone, loved me soooooooooo deep down and he gave me everything that i needed. So i wanna thank u so much, Darren.

When Silly appeared in both our lives.  I was sad, cos i knew my mom wouldnt take her in. You, say the expression on my face and couldnt bare with it. You sat beside me on the pavement, holding my shoulders and putting ur lips so near my cheek telling me, ''If me taking Silly will make u any happier, that's exactly what i'll do. You can come to my house to visit her every week or so if you wan. Will that be enough for you dear?''

I smiled, through myself at him. I almost squashed Silly dead. She continued crying. you brought her home and u fed her milk. Constantly updating abt her status, u knew how worried i was for her. As time goes, u and Felicia developed a special bond with Silly. Taken turns to take care of her, feed her, make sure she's sleeping well, waking up in the middle of the night when she cries. 

you were so loving and held her so gently with ur palms. stroking her head but looking at me. i sat beside u and watch. as she purrs and starts crying the moment she sees light. 

when u were done feeding her, u held my hand and took me up ur room, with the door half open, to make sure ur mom sees u. we started watching ur fav series. watched animes and played games together. u told me more of urself, and dig for more of mine. your mother would check time to time. and makes sure that u never run out of water. u hugged me. and ur sister saw me. 

Everything worked out well. and it was my fault. i'm sorri. u were the one that all the girls seek for. comforting, loving, innocent, the type that'd do anything for their love ones, the one who would protect their love ones. u're sensitive bout ppl when they insult me too. u were lovely.

i've heard bout u from somebody. u've changed. u became foolish. involved in fights, still becos ppl are insulting me. i hope ur okay. i'd pray. i'll still have faith, that u'll find the way. 

u love ur parents, and also ur sister. 

u love chester and rocky too! 

the onli one left in the family that u dun love, is you. 

pls... wake up.. and know the value of urself. girls are begging for u. 

why me? be safe. take care.   

pls dont hate me. cos i'm really really sorriee..

Some advice for everyone

When u think or u ARE pms-ing. 

Jane hereby advises u not to change ur guitar strings if u dont know how to change one! 

Have a nice day =]

Today, A Day Like No Other

The first unusual thing to happen, is that i reached school early today for assembly!

second thing was, the blazing sun didnt bring me down.

thirdly was, out of no where. gastric ran inside my stomach and started dancing. (yeah, shake shake shake shake shake it!)

fourthly, the lovely idiots who were inside the PBSM/BSMM room were making so much noise i couldnt rest. 

5. for no reason many ppl came inside the BSMM room. 

6. suddenly i know that many ppl actually do have certain amount of concern for me. 

     especially kok chern. hahaha he text me !

7. i slept together with nicholas till it was 2.37pm. and i tot i was late for tuition, followed by many moments of panicking. and one moment of. 'oh! teacher's leaving at 2 50pm i still have time.'

8. kyan was bz. when i was crying on the bed. =(

detailed one*

i reached school pretty early. like atleast 10 mins before the assembly started. the scorching sun was roasting all of the students, what's special is.. this time, they went after quarter of the teachers too! So.. it made me feel better while i go ''my head is spinned right round right round, when i'll go down? when i'll go down down? ''  

when it's finally over. bby looked REAL worried. he carried my bag for me and my books too! Went back to class. that's the part when gastric crept into my stomach and started taking refuge there. so went to BSMM room and slept. TILL. the monsters came and made noise till after recess. When i went back up to class, for a while. Went back down to BSMM room again, cos this time Nicholas aint feeling well. I was exhausted, sweaty and in excruciating pain. The pain dwindled in my dreams as Nicholas talked away and i just pick up a  few words and replied with the ' uh-huh uh-huh' and the 'then?' 'oh, how unfortunate/unlucky'

Then! Shahirah and Fatin was LOCKED inside the BSMM room. sad. 

they left after we rescued them. and me and nicholas both slept. till he woke me up. the pain came again. 

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT! 

i guess i'm extremely lucky to not have the whatever disease that bby is having. i never seem to able to remember the name of the disease. if u ask why. in the romantic way i'll say '' cos onli bby will tell me bout the term of the disease, but he's just so mesmerizing, it couldnt get in my brain''

or straight forward '' i dunno? cos it sounds like something i will not be able to remember?''

no i'm at home, strumming the strings on my guitar. trying to make something out of it. but i'm just stuck with 3 chords. so Hanyvellu! i'm waiting for more chords to learn!

bby.. so sorri i didnt spend much time with u today. thank for everything that u've done for me today! i love u sooooooooooooooooooo much! You take care of urself too okay?

Confession.

i just know that, i'm right this time.

i can feel that, things will work out this time.

i wan to stay by ur side as long as u still wan me to.

can i be part of ur life till this feeling disappears?

knowing that u'll be by my side, wiped away the worries i have.

when u told me that u'll always be mine. my face grew hot. my eyes were wet. 

when u held me, i know that u'll stay with me

when i leaned on u, i knew that everthing will be okay..

when u walked towards me, u assured me that when i'm in trouble, u'll still walk up to me, exactly how u normally do.

u gave me confidence that when i need help, u'd lend me a hand. tell me u'll always love me.

u'll always be with me. 

i love u. i always remind u that.

i dun wan u to live a single moment from now onwards. thinking that i dun love u.

becos i do.

a lot.

jus like the amount u love me. 

u held my head close to mine. told me that u love me.

kissed my cheek gently and gave me a hug. 

so comforting. so warm. 

i'm finally a whole. becos i've found my right piece of puzzle to fix it in my life.

you my dear, is the missing puzzle piece that i've been searching for. 

2 Things That Pisses Me Off the Most Now

1. Facebook - Pet Society. 

2. Msn Messenger

Friends

True friends. 

doesnt have to be the one who sticks to you all the time

they dun have to be the one that pay for all your expenses.

a true fren.

will help u when u seek help from him/her and telling u that she'll do it without a doubt, with no hesitation.

will let u go on with ur daily life until u need her and he/she'll come to  u.

will know what's going on in ur mind when u're quiet.

will know what problems u're facing.

will confront u when they see u troubled.

will be with u when u ask them to.

do u have a true fren? 

have u found one?

look around. mayb he/she is just right there. 

cos some how. my true fren. fortunately. is also my boy fren.

my heart is racing 

as i'm waiting.

why haven u call.

did something happen?

or u just fell asleep.

i'm worried.

are u okay?

i'm starting to sweat.

wondering where u're at.

bby is everything fine?

should i wait

or am i just thinking too much.

Learning

Learning has fused into our life that we do it 24 7 and unconsciously. We don't only learn from books, magazines, or one thick heavy dictionary. We learn moral values, teamwork, mistakes, the good stuffs and the bad stuffs. Now that we know that we learn about different matters all the time, so you cant measure it by what we learn, but how much we learn. 

We've seen lots of books  like ''Learning Made Easy'' or '' ________(fill in the blank) for dummies'',

in this century, we no longer say check the dictionary, why? Because you're dumb if you do so, for certain people. Instead of 'check the dictionary', we say ''Google it'' or '' Yahoo Answers'' or ''Wikipedia''. This proves that learning, dont only come from one source and that one source only, books, the main source for schooling communities. 

Learning comes in so many forms, pure boring thick books with no colours with arial fonts. Thick books with COLOURS and pictures, transparentcies (however  u spell it ), projectors, laptops, CDs..  Knowlege can be passed from one to another not just by all these, by communicating, by sharing, by so many other means.

i'm going to watch tv now. so no mood to write d.

all i wanna say is

THE WORLD IS FREAKING AWESOME!

=(

having major headache now.

cant sleep

cant scream

cant do anything

cant eat

all i can do is fill my mind with u

eventhough it hurts like hell

i'm out again darn it. it runs out so dam fast

house phone got problem laa.

cant contact u =(

i miss u

where are u

T.T this stupid headache is killing meeee!!!

Happy Birthday Ng Zer Hann!

It was a blast!

                        loved this picture!

                                  candid? guess so. but Azhary posing d.

a few pics of LAST MINUTE!

u guys are all so awesome i love u guysss!!

Azhary, Rizal, Ryan and Aliza!!!

Thank you so much for making all this happen.

You guys did great!!

=] 

I had extreme fun dancing with you guys.

and all the aching of my  muscles are so worth it!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT.

LAST M INUTE ROCKS

It was a blast!

Lord Help me

Tomoro! is THE DAY.

One day of practise again

and 

Last minute

shall thrive =D

Lord pls lend me Your strength and cautious and everything that i need

for tmr to go through smoothly with a bam! For no one forget the steps and the music to go smoothly. For everyone of us will be in sync and fr the event to go well. 

Although none of my family members will be watching.

but You will watch over me right? =D

I love You Lord. 

Amen.

International Relationship Day 2009

 This coming Saturday! which is the.. 11th of April. The Leos of the SMK Sultan Abdul Samad is going to have their IR Day! 

awesome performances await.

Theme is LOL.

they're selling some really cute badgets. 

but incomparable to our Interact's one =P

sorry chi cheng. not that u read my blog.

so bby has been backing me up lately  for i always have sudden emotional break down.

wonder how he handles it though. 

Today told him that i  was crying in class and said i needed company. 

Without any hesitation he got out of class and came to the back door of the class.

Look at me and mouthed '' are u okay?'' 

I replied mouthing too! '' Phone, not here!'' Doing the phone sign with my hand. ( he wanted to keep me company)

and he's like ''oh!'' 

Isnt he adorable???

No it's not a questions cos the answer is already there. 

like DUH.

Well mayb he felt like an complete idiot. But no worries sweetheart. You're not! 

Getting to know his friends just made my life merrier.

 Somehow. we're on the same plane. As in our sense of humors. 

Not that i have any.

Meaning. Less time for Chad and Kyan. 

Chad seems to be quite fine with it. 

but i still have to report to Kyan like almost every hour.

It ain't easy. Cos there's 4 person who cares most bout me.

And among them, some who refuse to admit but shows it.

1. bby

2. Kyan

3. You

4. Nicholas

I hereby sincerely apologize to all the readers. 

For such a boring blog. with no pictures. 

Or anything new. 

=D

Just came back from tuition. droppd by in 7 11 to get a drink.

and was staring at the big square transparent glass with the golden frame.

with LOTS of different drink inside..

I really wanted to tried the whatever and anything drinks.

i stood there for around like.. 3 mins i guess ? o.0

then. i realise if i reach home early i still get to watch a lil bit of Ugly Betty.

so.. what the heck. V-Soy it is!

since it's quite a journey from my house to 7 11. i decided to drink while i walk. and for that to happen the cap has to be opened in order for me to insert the straw and start sucking.

and for the cap to be removed! we need a... what do we called it. CAP-REMOVER?

whatever. if u know what's it called pls tell me.. 

okay so. normallly they'll have one at the counter. but they couldnt. 

just to make their life more miserable. after paying i asked them to opened it.

so this quite cute malay guy was searching all over the counter for the CAP OPENER.

but he couldnt find them.

so they communicated with bm.

''eh bodoh, kan tadi di sane saje.''                             malay guy 1 

''nampak tak tu!.''  points somewhere at the counter**

''mane la bodoh!''     malay guy 2

                malay guy 3 stands there and watch cos he finds it entertaining.

 pls be aware that all the 3 malay guys are standing inside the counted.

and i'm facing them.

   *** after sometime looking for the THING. I just stood there thinking that i'd already miss Ugly Betty. so whatever i just have to be home at the time when Desperate Housewive starts. 

''guna tangan je la bodoh'' malay guy 1 

''eh ye ah! '' light bulb lits on malay guy 2's head.

'' sakit sial bodoh! U cube la!'' malay guy 2

                             The merciful Jane, said '' nono it's okay..'' but they still insisted. 

cut the crap. and malay guy 3 just laughs stading between them.

around 10 mins. 

he opened his golden mouth and said.

''kan sane ade. *points at where they SELL cap removers* bodohnye babi.'' malay guy 3

so malay guy 1 ran over there and opened the box of NEW bottle cap remover.

just to open my V-SOY.

and he added. ''just for you my lady.''

WOW. hearing this from a worker in 7 11.

touched and feeling weird. 

i left the 7 11

Sorry readers for not updating my blog.

things has been quite a mess but somehow. bby  has the ability to sort everything out for me.

I'm pissed off at someone who quit on me. or shall i say us. 

I'm disappointed to the core. I'm hurt. I feel that i suck. And i am of no value to you.

Now i'm just trying to move on and find the correct timing to do my thing. 

for now. my dreams are still shattered. and bby u're the onli one who's holding me up.

i'm emotional, i'm being dumb. 

i'm being myself. 

i wan u badly.. why wont u gimme a chance.

Thank you bby. i love u. for everything tht u've done for me, with me and to me.

like walking with me from one class to RLC. i love u bby.

thnks =]