Last Day of 2007

How are you spending ur last day of 2007? With ur family frens? or alone at home doing things that oni satisfy urself. a new year is coming. get along with ur family for this special day as it is never b4 and never again day just like every other days but tomoro it's a public holiday. A new year it's already here. Have u prepared everything for it? New stuffs are going to come going to happen are u ready to face it yet?

I'm now alone awake in the house while all the others are sleeping.. The last day of the year mostly i would hope to spend with someone i truly care about or someone who truly cares abt me.. But then i found out that sometimes u jus suddenly dissapeared for so many times in a row ppl jus dun give a fcuk. believe me.. i didn't really nid much attention but sometimes getting attention makes u feel that u're not abandoned. Today was a emotional day. Lucky to have someone dearest to me to talk to even though he was busy to me. When everything is falling apart he'll always be there for me. Mostly i would onli be sad abt my family probs as my family is BIG problem. so. parents divorced and now together but with an extra 3rd party. Everything that i care of, my mom just ignore me..


For what i've always know that mothers love their children the most more than their husband as expected. my mom already have lots and lots of blessings
children like us who still talks to her joke laugh tease and share. children who doesnt take drugs create problems or make her worry.. we're independant and we're already working. 38 at all times and a laughing sack. she's got all she nid money food love care and problems. but she just nid the BIGGEST PROBLEM. which is so unfortunately my dad. leaving us behind and trying her best to get my father back. 3 of us definitely disagree her for being together with my father again as my father never take relationships seriously. especially without sex. he would die without it. last day of 2007, he came for dinner and said wanted to go watch fireworks but then a sudden call came he left without informing us. we tot he would come back until we called him and he said he sneaked off for some other appointments.. so the last day of 2007, forsaken by a useless dad. as already forsaken for a long time but this time it really pisses me off.



i'm not a violent person but sometimes i just feel like using just garden sheers to cut his toes one by one. use the nail clippers to pinch his skin and skin him. stuffing a key into his eye and force him to take it out. make him cry like hell. suffer and feel the pain in every inch of his body. cut him and avoid all the major arteries so he'll nid more time to die.. to have water entering his lungs and letting him to feel it would be just fantastic.


anyway skip it. sorry for being so lame as sometimes my father can be really dumb =) although i'm alone now but then it feels weird cos it's gonna be another new year but then... we're not celebrating at all.. what's the matter man.. no spirits! dam~ i'm missing a lot of ppl now..


since a new year is coming i hope to apologize to everyone that i have aggrivated or teased or offended i am very veyr sorri and hope that u would forgive me as i wouldnt want u to hate me again. i hope everyone would have a really nice new year. how u wan ur day to be like u decide urself. if u wanna be happy then ppl getting emotional or accusing u wouldn't affect ur day as u choose not to be affected =) be who u wan to be.. heard of ' i am therefore i am'? think abt it. theres 10 more mins away to a new 1st of january 2008. and i know that i would definitely be hard for me to change the habit of writing 2007.

anyway i'm not gonna stay up till midnite or the new year so..




HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!~~

Something's Wrong

I've never since young like kids. I've always thought that they're juz pure troubles and noise.Now that i've got a closer view of kids. They are cute. Very cute indeed. When troubles come if u deal it well, they're even cuter.Some emotional times when they see you crying, they would approach you juz a simple smile or just show concern. It's like they just brighten you up. You would straight away hug them and just let it out. It's hard holding back things. Especially feelings. I remember mom said, married woman or jus ladies. When you hold back ur tears or pressurise urself. It's very easy to get breast cancer..

Something's wrong, i'm actually starting to like kids. Especially the normal born kids but not pampered and others. Children are such wonders when they would learn to care help and love. I'm currently a swimming instructor, mostly teaching kids to swim not ready for adults yet but working on it. I teach all 4 strokes breast back fly free. So back to the point. We're now trying to ask our students to put back the things they used after class.(we supply swimming boards flippers pull buoys for them to use but our company's property). Some of the students no matter how many times u remind them, mayb they dun do it or they forgotten, i dont know but they just wont do it. They onli have to put back the ones they use. Is it that hard? To have a little responsible for the things u use? So some of the students, they're just doing their part perfectly. Very very good students . Unexpectly, the poor students have big big ego. For my rich students even they have their own driver and individual maids. They would even help putting back those who didn't put it. They would help me pick up the left overs. But there are also rich students that wouldnt listen and thinks juz becos they're rich they can do anything they want. As long as their parents cooperate with us everything would be fine =)


I felt truly touch to have someone helping me although i've been torturing them(mayb). They still put a smile on their face after doing it. There's always laughing crying screaming scaring pushing running drowning improving scolding winning losing learning slipping complaining and so on.. but not drowning of cos. other than that. Sometimes it's not easy to deal with the probs if a child is too pampered. Problems come u chuck them aside but they're still there. Although they're young but it's always good to have some preparation. Bit by bit so by the time he grow up he would be tough enuff to face problems and solve them. Take them in instead of just running away from them.