Last Day of 2007

How are you spending ur last day of 2007? With ur family frens? or alone at home doing things that oni satisfy urself. a new year is coming. get along with ur family for this special day as it is never b4 and never again day just like every other days but tomoro it's a public holiday. A new year it's already here. Have u prepared everything for it? New stuffs are going to come going to happen are u ready to face it yet?

I'm now alone awake in the house while all the others are sleeping.. The last day of the year mostly i would hope to spend with someone i truly care about or someone who truly cares abt me.. But then i found out that sometimes u jus suddenly dissapeared for so many times in a row ppl jus dun give a fcuk. believe me.. i didn't really nid much attention but sometimes getting attention makes u feel that u're not abandoned. Today was a emotional day. Lucky to have someone dearest to me to talk to even though he was busy to me. When everything is falling apart he'll always be there for me. Mostly i would onli be sad abt my family probs as my family is BIG problem. so. parents divorced and now together but with an extra 3rd party. Everything that i care of, my mom just ignore me..


For what i've always know that mothers love their children the most more than their husband as expected. my mom already have lots and lots of blessings
children like us who still talks to her joke laugh tease and share. children who doesnt take drugs create problems or make her worry.. we're independant and we're already working. 38 at all times and a laughing sack. she's got all she nid money food love care and problems. but she just nid the BIGGEST PROBLEM. which is so unfortunately my dad. leaving us behind and trying her best to get my father back. 3 of us definitely disagree her for being together with my father again as my father never take relationships seriously. especially without sex. he would die without it. last day of 2007, he came for dinner and said wanted to go watch fireworks but then a sudden call came he left without informing us. we tot he would come back until we called him and he said he sneaked off for some other appointments.. so the last day of 2007, forsaken by a useless dad. as already forsaken for a long time but this time it really pisses me off.



i'm not a violent person but sometimes i just feel like using just garden sheers to cut his toes one by one. use the nail clippers to pinch his skin and skin him. stuffing a key into his eye and force him to take it out. make him cry like hell. suffer and feel the pain in every inch of his body. cut him and avoid all the major arteries so he'll nid more time to die.. to have water entering his lungs and letting him to feel it would be just fantastic.


anyway skip it. sorry for being so lame as sometimes my father can be really dumb =) although i'm alone now but then it feels weird cos it's gonna be another new year but then... we're not celebrating at all.. what's the matter man.. no spirits! dam~ i'm missing a lot of ppl now..


since a new year is coming i hope to apologize to everyone that i have aggrivated or teased or offended i am very veyr sorri and hope that u would forgive me as i wouldnt want u to hate me again. i hope everyone would have a really nice new year. how u wan ur day to be like u decide urself. if u wanna be happy then ppl getting emotional or accusing u wouldn't affect ur day as u choose not to be affected =) be who u wan to be.. heard of ' i am therefore i am'? think abt it. theres 10 more mins away to a new 1st of january 2008. and i know that i would definitely be hard for me to change the habit of writing 2007.

anyway i'm not gonna stay up till midnite or the new year so..




HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!~~