Hatred, Betrayal and Forgiving

Hatred is something so common among people that to us hating someone is just something very normal. People abuse the word of 'hate' and forgotten what it truly means. I've been thinking for a long time how can a person hate someone until they dun talk to each other for months or even longer.. My mom always tell me that if u hate someone it actually means that you hate yourself. But she's been saying that for years and i still don't understand.. I think it was because i was not mature enough to really think what hating people mean.

I hate my father, i really do hate him. That day i asked myself, why do i hate him so much? Despite that he just left you for his on happiness and life and ruined ur childhood and wrecked your life? I always think that it's all his fault for me hating him. IT IS! maybe.. But recently i found out what hating means, you can't hate someone when you don't want one to be good.. Back to what i started, so why do i hate my father? I figured out that i hate my father so much is because i really care about him. I hate him because i cared about him bout he disappoint me. I hate him because he broke my mother's heart. I hate him because he lost my father. All this hating. is because i care..

If you dun care about someone, you wouldn't even bother to hate him or her cos you dont have feelings for them and it doesn't matter to you whether he's good or bad.. But someone that has been really close to you betrayed u or someone u really trusted backstabbed you or whatever bad things that you can imagine one can do to you.. You couldn't help but hating them because you really care about him/her and you really had high hopes for them..

Betraying someone it's a bad thing to do. The worst thing to do is to betray yourself. When someone love you so much and you have the same good feeling with him/her but you ignore or hurt her. you are betraying yourself. Betraying your happiness.. When you betrayed someone's trust. Once forgive, TWICE, forgiven but at your THRICE, you still make the same mistake, it is too bad.. It is bad to started and it is even worse to repeat.

Have you thought of one day you love ones betray you and it hurt you so badly?
Let's not talk about love life, let's talking your family members.. what if one day you found out that your mother actually wanted to sell you off just because she's a hardcore gambler and she's out of money and you burst out of her womb and she's too stupid to realise your a treasure.. How would you feel when someone that has a special bonding with you just didn't bother to get to know about you and love you and be responsible of you? It goes the same for your friends. When You betray your friends if u're lucky they will forgive but if u're unlucky they'll forgive you once again if u repeat the same mistake.. If it is for ur own good.. If the forgive u when u repeated the mistake and always forgive u.. U're not learning from ur mistake but taking their forgiveness for granted, maybe they don't care about you or maybe you're just too close to them that they don't want to lose you.. You yourself must know that it is wrong and you must put a stop to it. YOU MUST PUT A STOP TO IT. If one can do so. doesn't mean everyone can do it.

I don't like people to repeat or even make mistakes. Especially mistakes of life, principle or whatever.. When you do not set a principle of your own, when u go out of track you wouldn't notice because you don't have ur principle, you didn't draw a line for your limit. Different people has got different principles for set for their own. You yourself who set the principle must oblige your own principle. You set law for yourself to show maturity and also proving urself that u're not a barbarian or a tarzan or tarzan's gf me..

Anyway, forgiving someone it's not easy. When someone says that they forgive you, maybe they didn't really mean it.. You must look into yourself ones in a while to make sure you dun make a mistake too big to fix.. In life, studies or others. Forgiving someone it's good and it is not wrong to forgive someone easily, BUT it is wrong if you take people's forgiveness for granted! It is not wrong for u to give but it is wrong for u to take.

And last but not least. I love u sweetie! mwahs! =D