Confused

Today was the last day of trials, well atleast for me. I brought my pillow-and-blanket in 1 to school for the week and yes, brought one for Alan ytd too. Scream facing it to reduce the noise which actually didn't help much. I hope i have did well for this trials. It will mean alot. I dunno if i should relax for a month or study my ass of till i go cuckoo. But 1 month after this SPM is coming. Few thousand tonnes of pressure drop on me, all of a sudden it matters a great deal to me. I've started to pick up on reading books again cos i see my english constantly going downhill. It pisses me off and disappoints me. It's devastating.

I think i'm afraid becos i care. Well my mom and others exerted lots of pressure on me. I pray b4 every examination, not for answers, not for the question to suddenly change to the ones that i studied for, but for focus, my mind to be careful and alert, stay awake during the exam, being able to remember of whatever i studied for, and i prayed that God will be with me during the exam.

God bless me for not having a stomach ache like Shahirah.

It was Physics 1 today. But i dun wanna talk about it, cos i wanna talk about Add mATHS 1. A day prior to our add maths 1 paper, i had my add maths tuition. I came back to school early and met up with my teddy, since we had lots of time left. So i decided to force some add maths into his mind. I manage to taught him from 1 to 17 which was exactly the sum I stopped at during tuition. So during exam, he had no problem from number 1 to 17, a few sums passed, and the others he didnt know how to do. Seeing there's a total question of 25, 17 is good enough i guess. It is 80 marks. I am relieved to have found out about the up grade for trials. If you wanna know more about the up grade, dun hesitate to ask =]

So after exam today, we packed up, Diyana, Nick, Alan and I walked to KFC. Then the others came, Samadians left a bad impression. As usual. I removed the fats from my breast(chicken) and dumped it in the cheezy wedges holder. It was sick. But fun.

We were talking alot and Diyana said i care alot for my body, i'm sure she meant health wise. Well i do. So she said 2 hours wouldn't be enough cos i'll be removing lotsa stuff from the chicken and trying to reduce the oil. So I joked, i think if i sneak KFC into the cinema and eat, by the time the movie ends, i probably wouldn't have finished the chicken.

Around 12 55pm. After informing mom i headed to KFC, she asked me to tell that so I did, but he didnt pick up so ya whatever. I was freezing so we went out to where Ainah, Mel and the others were.

Nick and me was just playing like total idiots, I played on the slide and landed on my butt, it hurts. I tried crawling through the bended tube thing carrying Alan's bag, i was stuck at the entrance, so I took the bag off. Then teddy said, don't get stuck okay?!.. So I went on, it was difficult as it was curvy and i was LONG. So it wasn't as easy as I tot to get through. I lied down on my back to crawl through the other half of the TUBE. THEY tot i was stuck. Mean ppl.

The worse part came, just as I was acting like a monkey stomping on the wired part near the opening of the tube. A familiar face, and he looked at me and i looked at him, right in the eyes. Pastor Danny. OHHHHHHHH MYYYYY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOODNNNESSSSSSS, i was so embarrassed..

He asked if i've taken my lunch and asked what was i doing there or smth like that i dunno, but i was just so overwhelmed. But i continued acting like a monkey when he went in anyway, just hope he didnt see what we did. Alan and Diyana probably stood there terrified by me and nick going all over the place, climbing, crawling screaming, exactly like a bunch of kids who needs lotsa nursing.

If i were to continue, this post will be super long and i've passed my curfew. GOODNITE folks.

i'm out!