woRK!

Today i went for an interview at Educare at Section 16/6! It went well and i got the job! Working around kids was definitely not in my to-do-list and it's an unexpected thing to do. I hope that everything will work out and i'm so very nervous about the kids not liking me, all i can do is give in my best and hope they find me non hostile.

New Year!

I'm not sure if it applies for all of you who reads my blog still, but for me, everytime at the count down, i'll feel emotional and touched, another year has passed, i think of all the bad things that i've done and the achievements that i've managed. I sincerely apologize to those who i've hurt, physically, emotionally, psychologically. and i want to thank those who stayed by my side to help me through my difficult times. Thank you mommy, thank you to my awesome SAM teachers at taylors. Thank you thank you thank you, God!

Fireworks light up the sky, dontcha wish the person you love is holding you right now, enjoying the scene?

Last year, you promised me, that today now at this very moment, we would be watching the fireworks together, but this also is an empty promise like all the previous ones.

I've accepted that. So i'm moving on =)

Best of luck to me.

New year, new day, how am i gonna celebrate the first day of the year? Work at 6am in the morning! Awesome! So grateful i have a job!

Perhaps

Perhaps one day you will realize you should've done so much more that you could have.
That you could have worked an extra mile, gave an extra kiss to your mom, spent more time with your dog, or sit longer hours to finish up your work because you'll never know when your last second of your life will come and it will be too late to change a thing.


Perhaps one day, you would come to love me and hold me, like it is the last day of the world, but till now? Not happening.

Discovery in my trash

I was cleaning up my stuff as i promised my mom that i would after my finals.

I was looking through the notebooks and tearing out used pages to recycle them so that the pages unused will be reused next year or so on.

Then i discovered something, i'm not quite sure if i wrote it out, but if i did, i think i'd be impressed with myself, knowing my chinese only had a C for SPM, but if it was taken from a lyrics, all credits go to the person =)

Here goes,

在爱情中， 学会了爱惜，

在生活中， 得知了痛苦，

在恼中， 知道了爱你，

在人群中， 看到了寻找很久的自己。

看到了未来，

抛弃了后来，

在发现到你的原来，

当时， 痛苦就来。

跌倒了，

鼓起勇气，

深呼吸，

再次爬起来

向前冲！

人生总有痛苦和快乐的时光，

有上就会有下，

不要得意忘形，

也不要过度操劳。

发现了美丽，

就会分辨了丑陋，

拿来比较，

宁可把丑陋的忘了，

留下美好的。

Impressive huh? I know hahahhaa, grats to the person who wrote it, it was impressive to me, even tho it's written with just basic chinese.

Cheers,

jane

my 500th post!

gonna ask if there's still even one person that reads my blog( i doubt)

anyone can help me fine these songs?

More

Fall Afresh On Me

both my New Creation Church (NCC)

thanks peeps!

You too?

cry silently, tears roll down ur cheek, when someone comes into the same room as u, just calmly wipe ur tears away and pretend that nothing's wrong.

not really a good way to start a morning huh?

well, my pajamas is wet now.

WHAT AM I DOING?

trying to impress you, dress up trying to look beautiful.

when u're leaving soon, i should just give u my blessing.

curl my hair?

what for when u're not gonna be around to see it?

Enlightenment

Today, i realised, how to check the amount of posts we did on the blog.

Did you know that going over bump at 50km/h with soft suspensions is SUPER FUN?

If you haven tried it, do try. It is SUPER HIGH, it is like my weed. Cant get enough of it.

When i was young, i was on the motorbike and u never fail to make me giggle

18 years later, i'm in a car, and u still do your job well, by making me laugh my ass off..

I LOVE YOU BUMP, i hope to see you wherever i go when i drive. =D

you are the reason why i drive, so that i can run over you at laugh like a lunatic after that.

HEH.

*still high on bumps*

Oh my mysterious and wonderful God, thank You, for giving the creativity to men to make bumps. You are the best.

Praise You!

Dewey

OH MY GODDDD.. today i went to the pet shop, and saw this small white shih tzu!!

reminds me totally of dewey, i have never seen another pure white shih tzu after dewey since he was a pup! but now that dewey's brown on the ears. He's still super adorable!!!

ESL assignment!

had to write a self reflective essay of 300 words.

it was cool i guess. manage to complete 3 in less than half an hour. will post it up here soon!

very pissed

he kept calling me after college, i was pretty pissed, of what he did. what he shared with other ppl. i felt like i was blamed for it totally.

you know what ass hole?

fuckk you

Fell sick =(

Went home early on monday cos i was feeling very sick, missed out on the assessment practical, didnt bring my lab coat, after the break, went home after teman chloe drink her mushroom soup, mom picked me home then i rested there, as the night came, fell more and more sick. but insisted that i dont want to go to the doctor. my dad came over to check on me, and also to bring my cousin to see my mom, who just came back from australia.

tuesday woke up still knida sick but the fever is gone, headaches and flus. Ate subway again and drank mushroom soup again and mom made white porridge with vege again and she bought tao fu fa! hahaha not a fan of it, but glad she tot of being it for me. it's raining now and dewey's really scared.

the late night walks and runs have been helping me cope with my current condition and emotions. think i should do it more.

Lost in KL Central

Today was my psychology presentation on Joshua, teacher did not comment on my presentation but she just asked for the movie. Other classmates asked for the movie too. Miao Lu gave me her pendrive straight.

Took the KTM home today, from Subang Jaya i went to KL central and then there was a problem with my card so i was stuck, but the security let me pass and asked if i've used touch and go b4, with a very weird expression but a smile. He asked me to go to the counter to check, i went to the counter, they told me to go to the touch n go counter, then i asked where is it, they said behind CIMB bank, but they didnt tell me where is CIMB bank. I looked around, lost, then look at the directory, it doesnt even show where u are now, then went to the concierge to consult the receptionist, she gave me directions after she flirts with the police. I went around looking for the stupid touch n go counter. When i finally found it, thank God the service there was good, it was very fast and efficient as there wasn't much ppl there.

The girl attending to me was fast efficient, and very lil words ( I LIKE). filled up a form, she transact my credit from my old card to my new card. Then i went to rapid KL and took LRT home to Kelana Jaya, walked back home, stopped by tanjung for a while, wanted to get something, but the place is too small. Feel verypressured when i walk inside with my bag, like i'm gonna topple everything.

Came back in the afternoon, slept, woke up and cooked fried rice for me my mom and darren. Was texting my ex and feels very very disturbed, still feeling very dissturbed. All sorts of bullshit, and empty promises. Fuck you.

I dont wanna get hurt. I wont allow that.

Around 10 45, darren texted me and said he was starving, went down to check on him, gave him his fried rice, he said he'll like it a lot a lot if there's no chilli. So yea, glad he liked it. Ran a few rounds to release the tension, felt like crying but just couldn't let it out, now feeling depressed and suffocated.

wanted to sleep but got up to do the table for my practical test 3 tomoro, a table to record the data and all. Then did the search on literature value.

Hoping tomoro would be a better day, choice is in my hand.


Lord be with me and heal my soul. I am wounded my saviour, hold me in Your arms.

thank you for coming

the companionship u provided for 2 and a half hours really helped me, thank you for coming to check on me.

sorry abt the sandwich, didnt know u dont like mustard. =] fried rice deal remember! it's 10 days! it's a promise.

u're the guy that makes the impossible possible.

there were 16 stars the spot where we stood and counted, when we look up to the night sky..

Heartaches

I've just been scolded by nicholas for not planning my future well,

my best fren isolates herself from me, cos i said smth wrong, i apologized to her and now waiting for her to be ready to be frens with me again

trusted the wrong person, having such huge impact in my life

thinking what to make for darren to eat later,

this fucked up bastard did smth wrong and the mother stood on his side, of cos. I'm the stupid one who believed the second time.


ILY Lord, restore my soul. Guide me in this hardship, as through You i shall not perish.

It was v.nice seeing u again.

Something really unfortunate happen to me today, cried in class, my chest pain went away with my tears, then the rest of the class just pretend that i'm happy =]

lost a fren, lost trust and lost smth so very dear to me.

After coming back from college, i manage to see him, he was still very cold to me, unlike last time, he will look happy when he sees me, but now, i couldn't think the same way.

College was long today, very long, and tomoro will be my turn for my psychology presentation.

I'M really glad that my fren chloe got full marks for her psychology presentation on studio ghibli's founder hayao miyazaki. or smth like that. Her presentation was so excellent and that she memorised everything and know every single detail in her slides, very well prepared. I'm so happy for her =] proud of her as she has been talking about it for a long long time.


Thank you for sharing with me about ur life, i hope what i told you would help the situation.



To the one who came to see me, thank you, it meant a lot to me. I could only think of u when i realise i was in a SHIT situation.

Shocking news!

AMAZING discovery from my 2 ex @@

one is that he lied

Darren texted me outta no where! i was very relieved when i got his msg. wish for another msg to know that he's safe. =]

Wallpaper

Since the moment i got my own laptop, i have been searching for cool digital universe wallpapers like mad, and now i've found quite a lot of very nice walpaper with extra features but realise I DONT KNOW HOW TO CRACK it T.T. this sucks seriously.

I WANT IT as my wallpaper!

someone pls provide me with guidance!!!

Today went to college almost late and was talking to mom about Paul the octopus, having predicting all previous matches correctly.

so this is the prediction for the finals, according to paul, spain and hollan @@

who do u support?

Today, was awesome.