Guiltiness..

you said u love me.
but it doesnt seem to be
u tried to kiss me
but it didnt happen


i kept walking
slower than a grandmother walking
turning back
hoping to see a person i'm no longer familiar with making sure i'm safe

wat was i thinking hoping.


It was all a lie.. a lie to him to u and to myself
i managed to get over with u and him
but not myself
i clearly know myself
who i loved


and now i lie to myself the best i can
telling myself that it's all bullshit of wat u told me
so it wouldnt happen again
thinking that u have someone important in ur heart
i broke my own.

eventhough u told me u still loved me
i almost slipped.
i did not believe.
u looked so bothered.
my heart ached.
i hold up myself
and gave myself couraged..

i did wat's right
when i have the right.
but i left broken
as i wasnt when i reached

i sacrificed once again.
and i felt the pain.

the one

I finally found that was embeded inside my mind
the one that i'm looking for all the time
the person whom i'll love and respect
to look at up him as my bloody husband


Ur arms are around me now
as i type this post.
in ur house is where u host
u were great checking on silly
so now i can stop the worry
and let u carry..


i put my ego aside
and be with eu..
to have things the way u want it
or like the way i do.
it doesnt matter as we're both together
together and never we're forever.

in my heart is where u belong.
to kiss and hug is what we both love.
to be in each others arms when we both need love.

i love u sweetie oh yes i do
dun worri anymore as i am here for eu
although it still bothers me abt them.

but i know that u'll be with me till the very end..

without ur existence. i wouldnt survive lao gong..

without u keeping me warm i would perish in the cold.

i love eu

Baby!

i'm so glad to have eu in my arms
u always clear all my boundaries
and carried the burden with me

stayed up late with me cos i cant sleep
call me during midnite becos i had a nightmare

solving the problems that i couldnt in my mind
hugged me tight when i felt insecure
ur cute for afraid of losing me,
but u know wat
i'm afraid of losing eu too!

the last thing that i wanna do on earth.
is to part with u baby
it would equal to using a chainsaw
and cutting apart of my ears eyes heart body nose and love

the ring that i've been wearing.
symbolises something.
that u are my something.
and i would be worried of u
even if it's just slight cough..

my heart would ache
as ur sick..

come with me and bring me to the paradise
that i've been longing to go.
paradise of onli our world and nobody else.
where there'll onli be..
you and me..
you are the treasure of my life...
i'm never gonna let eu go.!

i love eu lots lots!

New Chapter of life..

Trapped in where i didnt want to be
and now i'm free to be who i want to be..

Loving exactly the person i nid
and his love for me is all i nid..

being with him felt nasty
but now baby with u i feel happy.

and support is all u've been giving me ..
and problems were all i was providing..
u bared with it without a word
of leaving me..

i love u sweetheart..
from the bottom of my heart..

u've healed me..
from my past..


and now.. it's time to fix
what i've missed.
to investigate the mistakes.
and correct them from wrong to right

it might be sad
oh yes mayb..
but i'm sure.. we can go through this..
as u and me
are as one.

Lonely? No way!

lonesome
was the onli thing i knew
lonely
was the onli thing i feel .
being sad
was wat i used to do
putting a fake smile on my face
was wat i always force myself to do.


and now...





Awesome..
is the one i wanna be..
Awesomeness
is the onli thing i feel
being pampered
is exactly how i am



Loved..
was wat i mistaken for..
but now..
it's fixed better than b4!

Loving..
is all i wanna do..
i wanna give all my heart up to u!


No parts
of my heart are left hesitating..
All i hesitate is annoying u!

Happy that i'm released
behind the bars.
we now celebrate..
our journey that we traversed.


The hardship
we've been through..
and the tears we both have flowed..


Now it's finally an end.
To sufferings and moans..

Cos we're both together..
laughing at his hoax... =]

lao gong.. cant wait for Sunday! miss u and silly..

wad i have to do

all i have to do is to keep calm stay with myself and know that i'm all darren's =]

i love u so much baby.. ^^

When we first touched,
ur name was embroided inside my heart.
cos i know.
that we both have found.
just the right one for each other.

we shared in common.
of all our interest.
to fill in the gaps
between our fingers..

as u held my hand.
and hugged me tight.
i felt i would never fall
cos i've never felt so secure than ever.


loving eu..
with all my heart.
wiping my past.
with ur mighty heart.

i no longer feel lonely
nor do i feel sad...
cos i know that
u'd be here brightening my day..
just when i nid u there.

i love u baby.
and so do u....
i've carved in my name.
in ur heart.

we exchanged secrets
as time pass
but now i know..
i'm no longer stuck in the past.


you brought me from fantasy
to reality...
for the greatest love for u that i hav
it's not easy..

we treated each other
onli with honesty...
and this is the strength
that connected..
the special bond that we both have..

u had been with me.
as we both suffered together.
cried, hugged and talked each other out..

and now we're together..
i hope everything works out!!!

=]

我爱著谁 爱到我有点醉
告诉我妳是谁 能够把我让我变不对
你不会累 但我却爱你爱到好累
从没有为了谁 不顾安慰付出一切
站在这平衡点 我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见 只能够靠感觉

他不会是个好男人 也不会是个好情人
你对我说 我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那麽多 少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞 也不会让你更难过
你听我说 要好好学著去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说 你不要这麽做
你不要看著我 说你已经知道怎麽做
你很难受 我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛 再多坎坷我都陪你走
站在这平衡点 我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见 只能够靠感觉