tagged by mich

x1. Who is your ONE best friend?
my bestie is my bestie

x2. How long do you know him/her?
4 years

x3. Upload a picture of you & him/her.

no pic le.. replace wit this one.

x4. Is the person that tagged you your best friend?
ya =]

x5. Describe the person that tagged you.
she's a lovely girl. too lovely to be true till she can make me go to her church this coming saturday but i dunno wat time is it.

x6. How do you get to know the person that tagged you?
umm.. school.. =] she was quite scary.

x7. Ever regretted from knowing some friend?
perhaps a few.

x8. If your best friend betrayed you, what will you do?
fine the reason, and wipe it away.

x9. It's your best friend birthday. What would you give him/her?
whatever is necessary for him/her.

x10. Say something grateful to your best friend.
It would've been great to know you if i didn't fall in love with you. ya u know who u are. everybody does. but. i've come to know that this isn't the way. and i finally realise that love wouldn't come anymore. nice to meet you! =] to be able to share happiness and secrets with you was part of my reward from God aside of my family members. thank you for coming into my life. appreciate it a lot =] bestie.

I tag:
1)not much reads my blog so, THE ONE I LOVE.
2)but he wun do it so, the one i love but dun love me and love someone else. 'someone else'
3)carmen, which most probably will ignore.
4)cant tag mich cos she's alreayd been tagged
5)phil if u're reading.
6)nicholas if we're still talking
7)rachel if u have a blog.
8)that's the most i can think of, limited.
9)God, if you're free, send me ur blog add, i would love to know who's ur bestie.
10)Satan.

for you

　 等待 我随时随地在等待 做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问 这是爱 我猜 你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败 从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈 我愿意改变 (what can I do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友 感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手 但你说I only want to be your friend
做个朋友 我在你心中只是just a friend 不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白 但我给你的爱暂时收不回来 So I
我不能只是be your friend I just can't be your friend no,no,no,
我不能只是做你的朋友 不能只是做普通朋友

broken

Take my feelings, tear me down
All my words get turned around
Your lies remain a mystery to me
Well, I don't care anymore
I'm just thinking 'bout everything
that you have said but I can't say

I'm so scared of being broken
And I'm so scared of losing sanity
You're a part of me

If you want it, you can have it
I can't get enough of you
You always seem to break my heart
And I can't get enough of you
If you want this, you can have it
All the time I lost, you won
Every day I bleed in silence
Wondering what I have become

So why won't you look at me
Are you afraid of what you see
When your mind's gone missing
When my heart hits the ground
Are you close enough to hear it sound
When there's no sound

And I'm so scared of being broken
And I'm so scared of losing sanity
You're a part of me

If you want it, you can have it
I can't get enough of you
You always seem to break my heart
And I can't get enough of you
If you want this, you can have it
All the time I lost, you won
Every day I bleed in silence
Wondering what I have become

And I'm so scared of being broken
And I'm so scared of losing sanity
You're a part of me

If you want it, you can have it
I can't get enough of you
You always seem to break my heart
and I can't get enough of you
If you want this, you can have it
All the time I lost, you won
Every day I bleed in silence
Wondering what I have become

So why won't you look at me?

Birthday

new way of spelling LEMONADE. or am i wrong? o.0

anyway this is Du Viet's menu in the one in uptown =D wanted to have umaiya. but u know. give my father some face something cheaper la.

the food is great. the service is the best i've seen so far. among normal restaurants.











this is their lemongrass ginger tea it's freaking awesome!!! u must have it when it's hot. a reward for our stomach!













something something summer roll, with the prawn.












my birthday present, ahhahaha love it!














stupid me posing with my present =D














last but not least! my birthday cake! we bought whatever flavor we wanna eat and just combine them together to make my birthday cake =] they insisted to buy a whole cake but nah. definitely cant finish, have to keep then not fresh. there's a reason why every time when secret recipe close their shop they'll throw all their left overs cakes away. becos they're no longer fresh and they cant sell that quality, if employees wanna take them home, PAY FOR THE DAM UNFRESH CAKE.

what do i wan?

I want to be able to take pleasure in the luxury of love

I want to be scooped up by the person I love.

I wan you to be with me,

I wan you to love me,

I wan you to tell me that you love me too,

I wan myself to know that it’s just a plot

I want to love you even though we can only afford a dilapidated hut,

I wan to be equip of what is coming,

I wan to tell you that your arrogance left me astounded.

I wan to tell you that your words baffled me.

I wan to recede from you

I wan you to tell me that I’m an eyesore.

I wan you to tell me that we’re meant to be forked.

I wan you to know that you are divine to me.

I wan to jostle over the sadness and clamber to happiness

I want to lavish myself with confidence to move on

I wan to leave with an immaculate heart.

I wan to parch my eyes from tears.

I want to get you out of the apprehensive feeling that you’re having.

I wan to realize that I’m something

I wan to yield out my heart

I wan you to know that my stomach has butterflies when I see you

I want to be gripped tightly before I shatter into pieces.

` I want to run away from the emotional scenes.

I wan the excruciating pain to leave me.

I wan to disperse myself into darkness.

I wan to be strong enough to desist temptations

I wan to be able to fight against the insufficiency of love.

I wan to stop myself from saying that she is revolting.

I wan to hinder myself just enough time to think.

I wan to suppress my fury self.

I want to know myself

I wan to love myself.

Rejection.

Another rejection, another step forward,

My heart was filled with discontent at the very moment i sent out the message.
I somehow knew what the answer would be.
Something that i was hesitant over,
overwhelmed me with anguish.

Reluctantly i sent out another one,
trying to mend my mistakes,
oblivious from the fact that i do, will and always love him,
the results remain cryptic.

I wanted to hold you in a form of tangible object.
I couldn't, I scrutinized your facial expression,
every bit showed love and concern,
every fidget displayed guilt and fear,
of the mistakes repeated.

Abrupt question popped up,
you need not crease your forehead
or squeeze your brain as if to dry a wet mop.

'shrewd' i was, allowing sympathy to penetrate through my defensive walls.
Sympathy towards myself,,
i decided, i have to do this furtively, in the surreptitious way.

I will not encroach neither impinge,
I now type this quivering with tears,
the idea of eradicating the hope,
ebb and recede,
nostalgic moments,
it all had sentimental values,
and nothing more than that.

feeling nothing but solemn,
the agonizing stabbing,
the vacillate of departing from each other,
to compel myself into lying,
i was in a dream,
a mirage that i'll never wish to wake from.

endeavor was what i did,
to stop myself from flooding my eyes with tears.
to think of what was coming,
i knew it would come, it will have to, becos time wouldn't froze.
time will keep moving, forwarding our moments on the remote.
a controller i wish, to be able to hold the moment on,
to stop the time from ticking, and vanished ltr on.
to press pause when we were in each other's arms.
if there wasn't a pause button. a rewind would do fine.
the sentiments that flowed forward, will never come back.


subterfuge that was both beautiful yet painful.
in the duration of separation,
nothing seemed easy.

fretful of your condition,
my heart thuds in neurotic moments.
a dilemma i faced,
till now unsolved,
by hook or by crook,
a big leap would shard me into pieces.

a crucial point of decision,
a love life to forget,
the bravery to acceptance,
the ability to take trash,
the lurch of love,
the sashay of love.

the thing you're afraid most,
is that repetition will occur.

stern actions reflected in my eyes,
a step taken,
predictably, a good step forward,
daily routine changed rapidly,
another dent left behind.
a love once spread,
was now behind time.

dismembered from you,
ill was at ease.
the reaction i fought against,
to stare into your eyes,
i had to disrupt the moments,
that would have pulled off well.

the comfort you provide just through your eyes.
could both melt and shatter me into fluid or pieces requires enduring,
the warmth you spread with a force so powerful,
that reached into the core of my heart.
i whispered to myself, that i needed you to survive.
i would hold you tight, and never would've let go.
i scared you away, cos i love you too much.
uncertainty scattered over vestiges,
bundling themselves to cause a baffle.
creating fear of most tremendous unpleasant scenes.
repeated again and again.
the sweet reverie that lingers in my mind,
while poignant commotion interject.

an emotion expressed here,
as no one will read,
a glum blog produced,
hopefully well-written.

Yesterday

was my bitter sixteen birthday and also world Recycle day! 11/11/08

it was a havoc i know. nobody had fun, everyone was bored.

i was wasting their time, they wasted their money, and they still respects me.

It will be the last time, my next birthday, i'll just have my time alone, celebrating in the arcade shooting bad guys. Laughing at myself.

A few misunderstanding occurred. But i think i cleared it out.

He wanted to use the room, not that i let him in.

I like pyramid. I like ice skating, i like going to arcade, i like going shopping'rare' i like eating, i like movies. onli with you. i guess. tried with a bunch but it didnt work out.

N*** i'm sorrie. I've never known that i was such a bitch to you. Whether i existed or not it doesnt matter to you, becos i'm nothing to u. i admitt that i cried. does it matter? =] u wanted it, you asked me to cry. i did. u said it wil be the last time we ever talk. on my birthday.

i cried for loosing a fren. i will mourn for it. no matter what celebrations there is.



i was overwhelmed with gloom,
i hid in a corner away from everyone and cried, pretending to stare but it was dark, tears overflowing and leaking down my eyes.
I love you guys for coming to my party.
Thanks for coming,