Seriously

enough with the i dun deserve u crap!

i'm doing my best for the ppl i love, that's wht i wanna do! give my best to the ppl i love!!

and in return? 

all the guys tell me with the i dun deserve u crap!

it's stupid!

it hurts.

i just wanna share everything with u..

and now..

u wanna get rid of mee...

u did a great job 'holding back'

i need u by my side.

i miss u..

dun tell me that u dun deserve me..

i've had this before and i had enough of it..

come back to me..

and be by my side.

If the feeling of love is sweet.

why am i so bitter? 

if being compassionate feels good..

why am i feeling the pain..

if the person u love can heal u

why is it doing the opposite?

what date is today?

today i went to church!!1 yayaa.......

dam happy.. kekeke.. and got 3 sifu taught me how to play pool! wheeeeeeeee.. chi cheng, her kor, and also roy!!!.. the erk ermm.. lala.. no laa.. not that lala >.<

they kept saying i dam ganas. 

and chi cheng told me. if the white ball are my colored balls. i'd already won. Roy kept cheating for me T.T 

i felt bad >.<

remembered that ryan wanted a signature with a treble cleff.. today finally the lingam came! so start 'DESIGNING' one >.< 

You.. are the best.

i wish i'd get to hold u again in my arms like how i use to.

i wish u'd lie on my lap again. like how u use to.

i hope u'd wrap me again like how i like

and whisper me i love u.

or simply babbling wei yi when we're on the bed.

i wan to stare into ur brown eyes like i use to.

i want to hold ur hand whenever i wan to.

i wish to scratch ur head and massage for u..

i wish to tell u that i love u.

i wish i'd get to walk u beside me and introduce  u to everyone that u're my bf..

i wan to treasure u like u're my baby.

i wan u to love me and be loyal to me.

i love u baby and pls do tell me.

the feelings u have for me.

but somehow. 

i have the feeling that.

this is nothing but a state of mind.

i'm afraid u no longer love me.

u know i'd do anything for u.

u knew how it was like when i was with u.

u are the best. 

u were.

u are.

u will always be. 

my best.

just like what it's written on BB..

fell sick after hearing ur voice.

i still love u =P

i know it's impossible for us.

cos u no longer love me. and u love somebody else =)

good luck in whatever u do. but all i wan u to know is.

i love u. 

if u need me..

just.. gimme a call or something.

i'd miss u.

thursday!

today had a hell of a day! went out with yik loong nicholas kenny and kok chern. hahaha.. today me and nicholas dam funny.. we play like.. 'couple' game.. so as usual.. he takes me round the ring at high speed. azhaari almost made me fell for tickling me! he did it on me once d. then almost fell but didnt. then he do me again T.T


EVIL!!! BLASPHEMY!!


conclusion. i didnt fall =D..

i started to learn to skate alone on both feets. always when i skate alone i onli skate with one. braced myself today to start with 2 in the beginning. today's ice is DAM NICE.. can see the mists onee.. COOL...

so after ice skating..

went for lunch. i think i might have picked the wrong restaurant >.< fault ="P">



yik loong went for a walk while we were eating our lunch. i tot he didnt have money to eat. so i went down to McD from Du viet to get him a burger went back up to meet the fellows eating up there.. so we planned for movie after that. but didnt. cos my plan was leaving around 5 but ended up around 6 30.. lol.. it's all nicholas's fault. so we missed the movie. and uhhh went to red box. it's freaking cool. and freaking expensive. =D we sang wu niang and danced to that song. DAM FUNNNYYY.. well basically he talked bout quicksilver all day and telling me that he just wan to drag his person now to check if he's quicksilver t shirt is real in the ice skating rink when i was skating behind him..

melodramatic fellow..

so. i got out of hosp since chor 2.. =D

On the way to red box pass by anna sui's booth. so tried their nail polish. BLUE COLOUR.
exotic.. lol.. and it doesnt stick of the normal stench u smell for normal nail polish. this provides scent with very unnaturally whatever. it just didnt smell natural but not stinky

so after singing went back to sunway to check out some phones..


oh ya and the burger? yik loong ate. i dunno whether it was true. but i guess he has something he needs to protect too. so i respect him for that. so i didnt bulge or force him to eat the burger. just put it in my bag and brought it to red box. nicholas burst my ear drums. I SWEAR.


pics below!

sis brought this nail decorating thing. so tried out.

so the very ma fan. i ripped it off my hand while i was bathing

first time seeing nicholas in his long sleeve shirt.

talking bout quicksilver =.= kok chern and nicholas

kok chern staring at the menu for sometime.

my dunno what roll as usual. eat d then onli thought of pics.

LEMONGRASS ginger tea... yummm

kenny- reaction?

like hell was gonna fall upon him

red box foodd.. yum yumm...

the line there when we reach.. red box

nice to see but cant touch. we were leaving. so snapped

a few pics.

THE END =)

HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYONE!

this morning..  i tot of thoughts or things that would've win ur rheart or make u happy..

this morning i woke up trying to make myself look pretty so that u'd be impressed.

this morning i woke up knowing that someone loves me 

this morning i woke up happily knowing that i'd be talking to u in a matter of time.

this 29th january morning..

my eyes swollen from the crying

my heart was left dying

while my heart loves the sire

that showed me my true desire

i wake up in that instant.

to know that we are distant

i shook my head hard and tell myself.

u gotta be kidding. 

things are just skidding.

i fell in love with a lie.

a hallucination..

a person that never did love me.

and used lame excuse to get rid of me..

that used superficial words to win me over.

and use sadistic words to trample me over.

u never tried to hover

cos u are getting older

i tot i'd lie on ur shoulder

but u told me i gave u a boner.

u restored me with laughter

and now i'm filled with anger..

raged with me falling in love with u..

i warned myself.

so did u my darl.

u said be careful..

but yet i fell..

it is all my fault with what i'm in.

Lord pls guide me 

and be with me till the day.

billie. u were my dream guy. and now my nightmare.

just like my father.. 

i fell inlove with the person that has the same characteristics with the person i hate most in the world.. 

what did i get myself into?

troubles one after another.

i love you. 

but i know i'm already in ur past. 

i love watching mythbusters and bleach! dam!! well of cos. good mate watching with me!

hahahaa...

jamie says. 

when in doubt. 

C-4..

LOL.... kurosaki's father is freaking cuteeeee~! yuzu is so whiny..

i think i woke up from the dream =) 

plsss gimme an answer~!

Chad's here again~... he's sweeping my breakfast clean.. hahaa.. while i get the protein he help me eat all the others cos he's a vegetarian ;p 

=] today is cam whore day. hhahahhaaa..

tell me which one i should wear if i'm going to attend a guy's party. and i wish that his parents will like mee... thanks!

CHAD! DUN STARE AT ME WHEN I SLEEP IT FREAKS ME OUT

this morning woke up, feeling a bit numb at my arms. chad was beside my bed staring at me. with that sweet loving smile of his. with a red packet in his hand flapping it like it was a mini fan. i looked at his other hand holding a needle poking inside my arm. i felt the chemicals being pumped into my blood..  and went back to sleep. he saw my in my PJs.. =.=  great. and how i sleep. horrendous look..  while he and the other guys in MY room continue talking and watching tv. i slept AGAIN. woke up and everyone stared at me al the guys. i mean of cos i feel shy. - they're all guys. nice looking guys. @@ okay.. my type of guys. so i looked around me. mayb i wet in my bed or something. or i was drooling. i dunno.  fortunately. it was neither. is just that my pillows and bolsters are on the floor around my bed. chad just picked them up threw them on the bed pass me and continue talking. and sipped his drink rite after he was done with the pillows. then they continue talking lorrr.. i wonder where he get his patience. he always pat my head and says dun be silly. and smile. it's just comforting. thanks chad. 

so today went back to serdang. some pics below.

Chor Yat

the chopstick's colours are lovely! peach! my fav

it's so quite over here. is there something wrong? this isnt feeling rite..

weird.. VERY WEIRD...

Frust

what should i do? tell him? 

but i'm afraid that he wouldnt respond. 

i'd get hurt. shall i risk? 

i dont know. i'm frustrated i dunno what to do.

pls lead me the way.. 

somethign from my heart

难道我误以为了幸福和快乐吗？

以为找到了真正我寻找的幸福。。

难道我错了吗？

虽然这并不是我想象中的王子。。

但是遇见你， 让我从此感到生活的喜悦。。

非常高兴！

我想要得， 没有得到， 我不甘心。。

是被宠坏了吗？

i know that when u text me. i couldnt reply. but i'm happy that u did text mee..

i wish i could text u back too. with other phones i seek. but i couldnt find any.

my smile lasted the rest of the day when i saw ur message.

thank u for remembering me. 

i wish u'd text me more although i couldnt reply. just to let me know that i'm actually on ur mind.  eventhough i'm not talking to you.. 

失去了能力， 就找不到想要得爱情吗？

废话

i love u 

text me more =P

Happy Birthday Chad!

okaaaaayyy!! today it's chad's birthday! happy birthdaaaayyyy!! God bless! Good luck in everything u do, and i'd wish u'd thrive in whatever you're working hard for!!

after doc stuff me with some tasteless hosp food. left for sushi tei! in tc.  chad picked me up. then went home and get sally and justin. so we were kinda lost when we're going tc.. it was big. and i bit weird. lol..  when we were having dinner suddenly the lights went off. Chad held my wrist for a second. I dunno what was that for. i'd expected a birthday cake coming out, i tot mayb one of them might have planned it. but then the manager came to us and apologize.

no electricity >.<.. i think Chad's afraid of the dark~!! hahaahaha... He's fun though.. kept me laughing and it hurts my tummy. tummy hasn't been doing well.. i guess it's okay =] 

saw some dam awesome stuffs too in tc!

and my butt still hurts.  so after dinner spend a lot money! today did A LOT OF SHOPPING. it's fun to have a fitting room very big that u dun have to queue for. ONLINE SHOPPING!.. my fren's sister came over with some clothes to try on and we bought LOTS of them.. wheeeeeeeeeeee..... and we're all gonna share it!

packed my stuff and left.. starbucks again!...  cant have any grande though. tummy cant take itt.. 

so pictures below!

       sushi-tei

ma all time fav chawanmushi

this is freaking nice! dai dai roll..

sorri i ate one of them >.< ebi tempura

  no electricity. look at kor and sal.

i forgotten what's this called.. but it's nice! 

it's fried on the outside but soft in the inside.

  when we were all done and the house come back to live,

amazing art work done with honey!

  si fu is from China weiihh!!

a bit hard to see. but it's a dragon!

that's the wok with melted honey. and he's making mine,

phoenix!

when he's taking the thing up.

da waaaaaaa phoenix! 

made a chop too for my name!

the type of human i hold must grudge against -  clowns

they just creeps me out.. scares meee..

                                                 bad ass coffee... LOL

this is how it looks like =P

isn't it pretty?!

this is a very famous paper cutting in China!

The sifu also from China! this is one of the princesses.

isn't she gorgeous?! look at the details of this piece!!

it's time to head back to the ward. =] doc gave me good news. if my morning reports and i conduct myself properly. i'd make it out every dinner. =D 

once again happy birthday chad!! hope u had fun kekeke.. hope u like the cap! and good luck in ur competition oh! i'd pray for you.. the cap took me sometime to pick one leeeehhh!!