i've come to notice that there are 2 ppl who were concern of janie. and the one suppose to, not.

hey guys.. i'm here again.. ummm.. she's getting worse and worse.. well.. now.. i think these few days we wouldn't havve time to do this.. blogging thing.. she'll be needing more care than the last few days. no going outs. more injections, she's been screaming in the middle of the nite..

she'll be transferring into another private hospital. tomoro morning.

she cant get out of bed.. the drugs she require now is getting more and more obvious. she couldn't find the strength to stand. going to the bathroom is a problem.. but she does like the fact that she dun have to bath.. she sent me an sms and asked me to typed it here. her blood counts getting very unstable.. she says its for u u lucky guy



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sorri if there's any mistake.. i'm bad at this. it's so long and confusing.. she refused to tell even i begged her. but i didnt wanna waste her breathe not knowing how many she have left. i guess her heart will never change. she says u're name in her dreams but in the next moment she'll be screaming in pain.. she said that she think of the moments u have just before she recieve the pains cos the memories soothe her.. she stare at the ring when she talks to me abt what u both have gone through. i was trying really hard to pick a word a mistake or a bad point abt u.. but it seems to me u're perfect to her.. i asked for some bad points. and she said. it's from her heart that's why it's so smooth when i say it.. he's perfect.. he's a ladies man. and that she's lucky to have had him for 4 years. that flew passed..


i almost throw up and she said.. ya.. i understand.. it's so disgusting to say such things.. then she smiled....



i think she lost her mind. i had to roll my eyes constantly when i talk to her. it's starting to get annoying. perhaps i should just leave her alone. i've been waiting for so long giving hints. showing i'm the right one for her. but she's so stubborn! she's so stubborn that she loves him always and will always do..
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whatever it gets on my nerve the more i talk about this.