On the 23rd of January, 2007, the bud in me bloomed when I held you in my arms and kissed you on the shoulder. I was shy back then, i braced myself to hold yours, but we found our hands just right on time. We relocated twice. It was a sunny day and you were sweating, you said that I was dirty for kissing your back.We vandalized some part of the park and left a mark behind. That was the first time we kissed. You walked me up and we said goodbye. The scene made it up my top 10 grateful moments of my life. That was the first time, face to face you looked into my eyes and called me dear.
We continued. I wanna apologize.
I’m sorrie on the Friday 7th of September, I was cold to you, I didn’t know how you felt. I’m so sorry. I loved it I was touched. So touched. I smiled the whole day after you called. You rushed home but yet I was such a wet blanket.
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10 September 2007, a meaningful thought you had and you expressed it. I was more grateful than ever to have you.
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11 September, you gave me more love in words. You claimed that I am yours, your grateful to have me, you release tension when you’re with me and that you loved me. I love you too. You were so eager to chat with me back then. Enjoying every moment together although it was so little and so far.
Last year, on your father’s birthday, you said that when u think of me, all ur weariness will wear off easily. That was enough to lit your day.
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14th September, Haihs....tomorow i'll be dam dam dam boring. My jane is going for some camp =( althought i really hope that she wont go but if thats what she wants then....let it be, atleast she will be happy. So far today was a really good day mostly is because i finally can see my jane and plus its our anniversary.
You gave me PBB, I kissed you so hard that you fell on the chair. We both giggled for a moment and I sat on your lap and we both stared at the bear till it was time. We laughed and joke and the class was actually occupied cos the prefects were having something on.
I was one of the probationers. Thank you for being so understanding. I was dumb and took it for granted for the kindness and love that you provided. I truly apologize.
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15th September, Someone came up to you, cos we were the happiest couple. Everyone envied us. We had no fear. We had such strong trust, we loved each other sooo much.
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16 of September, you gave the advice of choosing the one that you feel comfortable and happy with. And now I believe that you did, chose the one that u’re comfortable and happy with. You were such a gentlemen, you said guys, no matter you’re right or wrong, apologize to ur gf. "my partner very emotional la...how?" ok...let me tell you something, if you really like/love your partner...you should accept him/her the way they are. Some people are born out like that so you cant blame them. Anyway if you are really facing this problem, you try to communicate more with your partner...it might help. .you got to accept it. And whenever you have a problem or you found out something is wrong regarding your relationship, its better if you take it out and discuss with your partner than keeping it in your heart....maybe both of you can think of a way to overcome that problem.
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20th of September. You were busy and we did not have much time to talk, we kissed goodbye and I went to bed. I woke up then called you and we talked till late night, it was 3.. hahaha we said we were soooo gonna get screwed for the phone bills.. I love you you said. For better or worst.
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21st of September, ‘’Today is one of my happiest friday ever. Mainly its because i get to see my jane =D. Something special happen today and i think its a really sweet and memorable moment to jane. I bought her something and i think she really loves it. I guess she will be wearing that 24 hour xD. The moment she saw that gift, from her face you can tell that shes' really really happy. After few hours, i went back to my school. I smiled each and every step i take when i was walking. I guess this is all, sorry ya if its short......
(message to my jane) : Dear if you read this, i just wanna say that thank you for giving me such a wonderful day and i really appriceate every single second with you =) and i'm glad that you love the ring. So, now you are officially Jane Chong =P muahahahahaa.....’’
I stared at that gift, we were in a class in form 3 block, it was a bit loose I put it on and did not wanted to take it out ever since. I nagged you for a long time for a ring cos u always call me lao poh. I always say, I dun see a ring on my fingers. I love you, more than what I was capable of.
22nd of September, the words in your mind slipped off your mouth and you were in someone said that you were stupid for not using ur brains, you came back to me and called. And explained the whole thing, I comforted you. You smiled after that, I convinced you. We talked happily after that.
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24th of September , True Story
In this world, theres this couple. Both of them really love each other alot. They had alot of hard times being together but then in the end, both of them are really happy having each other. Also, thier relationship now are really good but ofcourse sometimes there are arguements, quarrels and emotional war. Both of them has alot of things in common and they both really understand plus appriceate each other alot. Each side are like trying hard to hold each other's heart. Sometimes this guy here does things that really hurt that girl. When he knew the girl was hurt because of him, he really feels sad and sorry especially something that BREAKS HER HEART.
This guy here is also a emotional guy. He is really sensitive to what his girlfriend's action and words said by her maybe its because he really love her. Sometimes, this guy can do almost anything just to put a smile on his girlfriend's face but then it doesn't work all the time. Maybe this guy here is not good at it but then i'm sure that he has his own good. The only good thing he from him is that he really understand his girlfriend alot and when i say alot means its really alot. Also, in his mind, he is always missing her and thinking about her all the time, no matter where and when.
Sometimes this guy here helps his girlfriend in her studies. Whenever she got any question or dont understand anything, she will ask the guy. Besides that, the guy does sweet things just for her to make her happy and make her feel that shes' someone really special to that guy. Therefore, both of them really feel happy being together with each other. The girl always tell the guy about her problem and family things, eventhough the guy cant help anything but he try to be a good listener and adviser. Theres also one thing, they only meet each other once per week or sometimes few week once. When its the day that they can finally meet each other, both of them really appriecate every single second being together with each other side by side.
Last time, this couple broke up and got back together for a few times. Each time they broke up, they felt sad and they regretted. So, maybe because of that, they got back again and again. From here, we can see that they really love each other, if not why even bother getting back together right? One time, after they broke up, the girl went together with another guy. At first, the guy was really sad and hurt but then he didn't give up. Everyday he waited for her patiently and hopefully one day, the girl will get touched and come back to him.
Finally, after a few months of waiting, i guess she was touched and felt that the guy really loves her alot. So, they got back again together and this time, they really really apprieate each other and the guy will never leave her. And now, his trying is best to hold the girl's heart for as long as possible. Also, hopefully the girl knows that how much he loves her and how much she mean to him. Lastly, she remain the best in the guy's heart forever~
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I guess i'm just too emotional that causes all those small little fights. But ofcourse, when its happy times, both of us can really be very very very happy. Recently, i had a few small little fights with my girlfriend due to my emotional problems. All these while, i always think that i treat my girlfriend really well but then i dont think i do. When i think back, most of the fights start from me. Just recently, i felt that i dont even treat my own girlfriend well and even sometimes, i feel that my girlfriend has alot of hardtimes being with me. My girlfriend is always worried that what she do will maybe dissapoint me and i dont want that to happen. When i know about it, i can feel how painfull it is that my own girlfriend is keeping sad things in her heart and dont wanna tell me because she doesn't want me to get dissapointed. Besides that, i always think that buying things for my girlfriend is like one of the nicest thing to do. Yes, it will make her happy but then thats not what she really wants. My girlfriend is just a normal girl, not much expection but then she just want her boyfriend to really understand her and love her. Thats why, i think i'm a bad boyfriend and i'm sorry dear~
i <3 eu a lot
[ I have a girlfriend. Her name is Jane Phang. I really love her alot alot alot. Its like every single second i'll be thinking of her and missing her, that includes when i bath, eat, shit, study and more. Besides that, sometimes i also do dream about her. I really feel dam happy being with her and i had never regret loving her. Also, all those days where i waited for her, its all worth it. Jane, i really love you alot and i hope you know that. And all the people who reads this will be the prove of this message. ]
It made me laugh when I found out how it was… revealed.
And it was the message hahaha..
After that.. we loved each other more and more.. More and more..
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16th of October 2007
You came to my house a Sunday. =] we practiced our song with sally’s help. Stole a few kisses when nobody was looking, I was wearing my red shirt. We were bathing dewey you were sitting on the toilet bowl I was sitting on a stool on the floor, bathing dewey, we both got wet. Hahaha.. and we stole another few kisses >.<
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18 october
First Wish: Secret (but thn i think it wont happen anymore since 915.pm today)
Second Wish: Secret
I rejected you. Your heart was broken. I apologize once again.
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1st of November,
you got sun burned after the preparations for the sports day, it was the day when you said you dun like barley and you like to drink soup u reminded me the 4th time. =]
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We went to sungai wang together, it was soooo packed!!!! We went to the arcade hahahaha.. and we were sweating so badly, it stunk badly of cigarette smoke. You held my hand all the time afraid that you will lose me in the crowd. You held my hand tight and another around my waist. I was tired. So I leaned against your shoulder and wrapped my arms around yours. And buried my head into your chest. We were both sweaty, but we didn’t bother, we were tired. We were there early and lining up already. We chit chatted and I was whining. At last he came. And we both were excited. Someone fainted. I took a picture of it. And we both giggled silently. I was not tall enough. So my camera was blocked by another camera. You asked me to rest and u grabbed the camera from my hand and recorded for me instead. I put my hands around ur waist and buried myself in you again. To breathe. It was so stuffy. U were worried that I would pass out too.. and we kissed >.< hahaha..
It was our anniversary. You paid for the shin chan. Cos I said I wanted to do sand art. You took that back and kept it every since. You were obviously bored, but you helped me with it anyway. We were spotting colours, hahaha.. when we were watching the bee movie, we didn’t really watch the movie >.< we had to hold back our actions sometimes cos there were a lot of kids around. So you know. Dun wanna be a bad influence. Once it was a black out, our lips combined again.
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16 November, you came to my house. ^^ after tuition.. then we had some fun hahaha.. then after that you had to leave early cos u weren’t suppose to be seen >.< by my family members. You carried me up ahahhaa. We did not face problem. =] it was all good.
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18 November 2007
Thankful To God
You know guys, when i come to think of it, i'm having all the body parts that i am surpose to have, i felt lucky. Do you all know that, when you'r having all your body parts and healthy, its a blessing from god? Recently, my father's best friend admitted to the hospital because when he was playing badminton, he accidently broke one of his bone or whatever you called that at the bottom of his leg there. It was a serious injury that he had to go for operation and fix it back if not he might be on a wheelchair for his rest of his lifes. Few days back, my family went to visit him. When we were there, he told us how boring it is to be now. Also, he told us this "do you know its a blessing from god that you all are healthy and all fine?". So guys, appreciate what you have now, dont complain around and say why you dont have this and why you dont have that.
Here, i wanna thank God for giving me a healthy life, healthy family and all my good friends who has been supporting and helping me!
and most importantly......i wanna thank God for giving me
YOU, Jane Chong!!! xD
I remember who the uncle is becos I met him.
30 November, you sms-ed me so excited about Miss Agi’s sms. You were soooo happy and thrilled and touched. We talked at night. Then after a few moment of silence you would say. I’m still shock that miss agi sms me.. hahaha.. =]
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14 December 2007
Movie Merathon!
Hi all, sorry for posting so little things now a days. What to do, after PMR, boring like hell but atleast i have you =).
Anyway, back to the topic. As you all can see the word 'Movie Merathon' up there, and yeah..i had a movie merathon today with jane. I had a wonderful time. We were there since 11+ till at 8. We watched 3 movies.....enchanted, alvin and the chipmunk (must watch!) and golden compass. All of them are nice, especially "alvin and the chipmunk", you all MUST watch! Their sooo cute and not only that, their songs/music are super chun-ted man, they rock!!!
I think thats all for today. Thank you for giving such a great day!
And lastly, Happy Anniversary Dear! =)
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So....for talking so long, do you all want to know what i want? Actually, to tell the truth....i seriously have nothing in mind now because i already have what i really really really want. In my life, there is nothing more happier i could have compare to what i have now. And it is my girlfriend, jane. Im really very happy to have her and i will never regret loving her so much. She cared about me so much, instead, she gave me happyness and most importantly, i know what is love when im with her. I felt really happy, nice and comfortable being with her....
And then, it was the new year. I had my count down supposingly with family members but everyone was tired. You were in a party =] hahaha I remember too that u guys went pass the golf place with the cart it was all dark and you guys cant see a thing. Then the water starting to spray and you guys were wet but it was fun. Hahaha..
Another memorable day ma dear =]
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Haihs, before i wrote this post, so many things happened, got good and got bad but luckyly my dearest is always supporting me by my side. Ok, let's go back to 27/1/08. Thats my small birthday celebration, i went to sunway piramid with my dearest and my best friend. We seriously had hell alot of fun, we played pool and ice-skating practically the whole day hahahaha. My best friend left at 4+ but than me and my dearest continued having fun. Do you know how romantic, sweet and nice when you'r ice-skating with your dearest while holding hands? And you definately wont get bored of it, just like me! I wasn't bored holding my dearest hands' for the whole ice-skating time and you know what? I WANT TO HOLD MORE! =P After that, we went for a movie. We watched 'Game Plan'. You all should watch it, its really a nice show, cute, funny, touching, and lovely show. After the movie, me and her lepak there and we went home around late 9. In this day, i really had alot of fun. Honestly, i can say that, this is my best birthday celebration ever! Thanks to my dearest, she gave me such a wonderful day and ofcourse my best friend too =)
On 1/2/08 which is last friday, me, my dearest, nicholas and chi cheng stayed back in school to clean up our classroom. We four decided to clean and paint our classroom before chinese new year holiday. After school, we all went to KFC to da bao back to our class to eat. When we'r eating, so many funny things happened, if you were there, you will laugh your ass off hahahaha. After eating, we all started cleaning. We all sweap the floor, wash the black board, wash the floor as well and paint the dirty parts of the wall. It was really tiring and we all were sweating but than we all enjoyed it. I dont know why, after we clean our classroom, we all feel really happy and theres this satisfied feeling, especially when we looked at our clean and tidy classroom. After all the hardwork, we all had a short photo-taking time and following by playing cards. Later on, we all go back home....
Ok, now let's talk about today. Haihs, my whole family went back to Johor to visit my mother's parents except me. I'm home alone =( hahahaa! This morning, i woke up at 7+, it was seriously dam boring, i couldn't sleep back. So, i took my butt out from the bed and sit in front of my computer and watch some chinese drama shows until i had a phone call from my dearest and guess what? I was invited to her house to celebrate Chinese New Year with them! After hearing that, i was seriously dam fucking happy. In my heart i was like "Yay!" hahahaaa. So, i quickly change and head to her house. Her family members are really nice. When i was there, the house was full of noices, everyone was talking and the tv was on as well but come on! ITS CHINESE NEW YEAR! THIS IS HOW IT SHOULD BE RIGHT? All the family members gathered at one place and celebrate happyily together =D Also, we played cards there. Althought i didn't really win much but than, i seriously had alot of fun.
I think thats all for today, good nite! ^^
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16 February 2008
Questions & Answers
Who do you really love?
my dearest!
How offen do you miss her?
every single second...
Why do you love her so much?
actually, to be honest, i dont really have a reason for that question but what i can tell you is, i feel really comfortable and happy when im with her and shes the one who really understands me the most.
Do you all have hard times/problems when you'r together? How do you overcome it?
ya, we do have problems sometimes, come on, think about it, which relationship doesn't have problems? Definately there are big and small problems, but then it can be solve only if both party is willing to face it together and talk about it.
Is it really nessasary to have a partner?
erm....its not a must but to me, i feel that having a partner is really nice. Whenever you need help, your partner will always be supporting you all the time and if your he/she can help, he/she definately will try his/her best. Besides that, you will feel loved and cared. Also, your partner is a person that you can really share things with...
What do you do when your partner is sad?
i'll go to her, hold her hands, give her a hug and let her know no matter what happens, i'll always be here for her and if she wants to cry, i'll give her my shoulders to cry.
What are the important things that a person should and should not do when he/she
is in a relationship?
you must let he/she know how much you love her, care about her as much as possible, protect her in any cost, be honest to each other(this is to prevent bad endings), try your best to be there for he/she whenever your partner needs you, make her happy and more....
ok, what you should not do are, never ever cheat your partner, you will totally broke your partner's heart, do not scold your partner, if he/she really does something wrong, talk to your partner nicely and do not do any violent things to your partner.
When is your best time you ever had with your dearest?
its on the 27/1/08, that day was my belated birthday celebration. We both went to Sunway Piramid. The best time i had was, when i held her hands for the whole time while both of us are ice-skating.
What is the best thing ever happen to you?
to be honest, having my dearest. All i need is her, thats all.
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Girlfriend
Heres a little topic to share with you guys. As the topic said, 'Girlfriend'. I'm sure most of my friends know that i have a girlfriend, Jane right? I'll tell you a little secret about her. Yes, she may be harsh sometimes towards me BUT i believe, WHATEVER she do is for MY own good. Do you think acting to be a bad person just to make someone better is easy? Have you tried before? I am very sure that its not as easy as you think. If i don't understand her doings or her words, i might misunderstand her and i might even thought that she purposely hurt me or something like that but luckily, i understand her. OK, back to the topic. Just last month, my mom asked me a question, a really simple question but i couldn't give her an answer, not because i don't know but yet i don't know how.
She asked me rather is having a girlfriend good or not? It actually depends on how you see it. They are some people thinks that we shouldn't be involved in a relationship so young due to it might affect our studies or the positive side of it, not only studies, but in many ways. When it comes to that question, it all depends on what kind of girlfriend do you have. If you are lucky, like me, you will have a mature one. The word mature involves many many things but today's topic isn't talking about it so...i wont go into details.
If you have a mature and good girlfriend, she will try her really best to support and help you in everything you do, good ones of course. For example, studies. Whenever you don't know understand anything, she will try her best to explain it to you until you do and if she doesn't, she will do some research following by explain it to you. Also, she will find ways to push to you study for your own beneficial and future. When exams are near, she might even give you a call and asked rather you are prepared for the exams or not, if not, through the phone, she will explain everything that you don't know and don't forget, she might not even finish her revision yet but to her, you are more important than herself. A good girlfriend will do such things but please don't take things for granted ok?
Appreciate her doings for you and make her effort worth it. Besides studies, we can also talk about daily things or even yourselves. A good girlfriend will try her really best to change you to a better person by making you more mature than before. Sometimes, she might use some harsh ways but whatever shes doing, its for your own good, don't blame her, blame yourselves. If you had been more mature, she wouldn't need to do such thing right? She will also try to get rid of all your bad habits which might put you in trouble in the future if you go on that way.
Actually, there are so many more things to prove that she is a good girlfriend or not. Whenever she is doing something or said something that hurt you, don't straight away think negatively, hesitate for a while, think rather is she doing it because of making you a better person or not. Guys, i am really lucky, really i am. Whatever i said above, i had experience it before. My girlfriend did it all to me, i am really grateful to her and i appreciate her doings. Not because of her, i wont be better me now than before. Lao poh, thank you so much for putting so much time and effort in me, to change me to a better person, thank you so much! Muakz! ^^
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23 May 2008
Random Topic
My life has started to move its path to a stage where i am learning morals of life, good things of lives and stuffs like that. Frankly speaking, i am enjoying it and i am willing to learn those things because i know its gonna help me in the future and also by making me mature. If you ask my opinion, i will encourage every single one of you to start learning. When we come to this kind of topic, we can talk about many many things, for example, are you grateful of what you'r having now? Many people assume they do but actually they dont, at all. When you'r grateful towards something or maybe someone, you will definitely appreciate it and that person more than usual, as i am currently appreciating what god gave me, Jane. I know that some of you guys might think that every time you read my post, i'll definitely, somehow, mentioned about her but guys, i appreciate her a lot and whatever i do , i'll definitely think of her and shes' part of me, so.....whatever i do, i'll definitely include her.
Without her, i wont be writing this post because most of the good things i had learned these days are all from her or even related to her. I really thank her a lot, really. She taught me so many things until she changed me to the better. Thank you lao poh! You'r the best! OK, back to the topic, i am sure that most of the people in this world faced this problem before, people always and only look at the bad side of you and never appreciate the good things that you had done, am i right? How do you see that you'r grateful to a person? If you only see that person's bad side, then you'r definitely not grateful to him or her. Why? Because you only looked at his/her's bad side. If you'r grateful towards that person, dont you think you should look more at that person's good side? I'll give you an example, if your best friend did something wrong to you, im sure you'r gonna scold or blame him/her right?
And when you'r doing so, you ONLY remember what he/she did wrong and all the good things that your friend did before totally vanished into thin air right? I'll give another example, your best friend did 10 things and 9 of them are good but unfortunately, he/she did one mistake and because of that 1 small little mistake out of that 9 good things, you scolded and blamed him/her. If you really do so, you'r really not gratefu to your best friend because you totally forgot the 9 good things that he/she did. Guys, take my advise, before you start scolding someone, think of the good side of that person. What if he/she really accidently made a small little mistake or did something wrong out of 9 good things? Just give he/she some advise and forget about it. Its best for both parties, firstly, it wont affect the relationship between you and that person and you will be more mature by doing that! =)
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Love Life:
My love life now is wonderful. I can meet my lao poh everyday in school, how great is that? Our relationship is WAO....we are practically doing almost everything together, study together, eat together, tuition together and much much more....i know that recently, our relationship has popped-out many problems but we worked together and overcome those problems. After that, everything went back to normal, wonderful. Thank you lao poh for supporting me whenever i needed it, loving me so much, giving in to me and care about me. You know what is the beautiful part? We have been together for like 9 months already! So happy to be if her =P Lao poh....I love you! Only you! Forever!!!
Today:
Today is teacher's day! But i didnt really had much fun because my lao poh didnt come to school...how sad? Luckily, after school, i was allowed to go to her house. It was around early one when i was in her house...ate my lunch and start doing my work. My lao poh swept the floor and i mopped the floor. She taught me everything that i need to know about doing housework, such a wonderful wife! So proud to have her! ^^ anyway back to the topic, after all the housework, my lao poh taught me how to paint! We did painting together....and its dam fun! Something that we didnt do before....thank you for teaching me patiently sweetheart! U'r the best!
My mom was at home.. so we decided to paint! Hahahaha we drew few circles. Made lines and then. Purple and yellow.. Sorry for making you mop the floor.. hahahaha.. my mom praised you after that >.<
Seriously.
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Things started happening. And our relationship was sucked into darkness. We argue more often and juggle with blames .. these memories. The omelette that you made =] the scrambled eggs that you failed. Hahahahhaa we both swallow them down. You tot It was tasty. Me too tot so, becos it was you’re work! I will miss your Maggie mee.. hahaha
and now. the flower. withered.
candid..
