Janie stop it

janie, forced me to make an apology to the bastard. ya. i'm sorrie i shouldnt have said that.


yesterday she told me that u used to watch the sky wit her and had the same interest of taking pictures of the sky. yes. today. the headache came crashing her. she didnt find her pills and time and collapsed. right when i turned my back on her.

she lost a lot of weight in these few days. the last time i carried her up she could've broke my arms.
bt now. to exaggerate. she's as light as a feather. she did not seem to have lost weight. but she became much lighter. i had to carry her up the car effortlessly. brought back to the hospital after church.. and coming back. today. she's now at home sleeping i guess. sleeping pills again. she's tired but shes afraid to go to bed.

tmr after church she'll be going back in again. something did not turn up well. the family members doesnt know abt it. and umm. ya. no visitors. she did not expect any. she can finally eat today.. and she was bugging me bout mom making her baby porridge. she also told me how she had to beg for wat she wans to eat for a long time till she gets it. ya. she got it. i had to feed her. and she was making a mess. i sneezed just right when i put the spoon at her mouth. my face was technically covered with droplets. it pelted against my skin and i was disgusted. she giggled none stop but stopped anyway. cos when she's excited and laughing hard it hurts.

she asked me to called borders. to change the phone number for her reservation. she did not cry today surprisingly or mayb it was just that i did not caught her. she tried to smile the whole time cos of the food. she can take one out now. and 2 more left.

that bastard called her. and told her wat i wrote. i'm no longer angry and cos i couldn't. i got lectured for half an hour on how it is not my business and how i shouldnt interfere. but u know what janie FUCK IT. ok??? i wanted to help her submit the form but forgotten it was weekend. =.= so i'll have to help her transfer on monday.

and u know wat's worse of all? the headache pills that she's suppose to have? it's in my back pack. i helped her keep it cos she didnt wanna take her hand bag. and. it's now wit me.

she's sooo gonna suffer when the headache comes. so now i pray that it wouldnt come. i hav been trying my best to keep up wit her mood swings. her body is getting weaker. although she's starting to eat. she''s having cough and flu and constant headaches. vomitting sometimes. everything hasnt been going well.. not at all.. she pretends to be ok all da time. which irritates me to the max. her face was still pale but now wit more colour. she was under the sun. looking at the sky again.

she changed into someone. not jane. different. too different that i can no longer recognise.